:: Saturday, January 31, 2004 ::
current mood >>
:: Saturday, January 31, 2004 ::
|woodbridge|
|... killing time till i digest what i just ate...| i cant think of any word that would properly describe how really really exhausted i feel right now... i got from work at about 2145.. it was quite at the hospital today... i and mon were supposed to go to 2 of his friends' birthday party after my work but he decided that i go home instead and rest.. he picked me up from the subway, bought my fave food from Wendy's and then dropped me here at home before he went to the party... (thank u so much honey for spoiling me ^_^ love u so much!) oh, and also, he already did the laundry today so i can have a uniform to wear tomorrow *mah honey isho0o shweet* anyways, enough of this, im just missing him so much now that im all alone here in the house... i better hit the bed... :: Friday, January 30, 2004 ::
|woodbridge|
|.... ready to go to bed...| i just got home from the hospital... it was crazy and busy at the hospital, patients were driving us nuts! patients were going in and out of afibrillation!! jesus christ! i had 3 patients originally, then later before lunch i had a new admission from ICU... oh man! it's hard juggling 4 patients! *sigh* im soOo exhausted! i need to hit the bed... 3 more day shifts remaining! im really looking forward to my off day!! :: Thursday, January 29, 2004 ::
:: 2nd entry of the day::
|woodbridge| |.. finally done with my LEARNING PLAN *yahoo!*..| i feel great! im finally done with my Learning Plan... anyways, i thought i'd blog again and study after... at 1630 i should start cooking our supper (we're having steak tonight *yummy*) i found this on some websites, i cant remember where... i thought i'd answer it since im not doing anything right now.. it's called 100 things 1. Name: queenz 2. Nick: queenz / marie 3. Middle Name: flores 4. Hair: black 5. Eyes: black 6. Height: 5'4" 7. Location: Toronto 8. Birthday: june 5, 1982 9. Zodiac: gemini 10. Status: taken --------------------- Favorites 11. Animals? puppy 12. Sport? tennis, billiards 13. Color? yellow, blue, pink 14. Song? passenger seat 15. Band/Singer? boyzIImen 16. Quote? "all things happen for a reason" 17. Flower? white rose 18. Scent? my bf's perfume - banana republic ^_^ 19. Movie? now and then 20. Holiday? xmas! 21. Season? autumn 22. Element? i think im water (?) 23. Book(s)? archie comic books ^_^ 24. Do you wear makeup? yeah 25. Do you pluck your eyebrows? yeah 26. Do you look for personality or looks? personality 27. Perfect girl? who, me? 28. How many rings before you answer the phone? about two, sometimes just one. 29. Future Career plans? to be a Registered Nurse, then maybe work my way as a Nurse Practitioner... 30. Do you like stuffies when sleepin? i just want to huggable pillows and my honey ^_^ 31. Do you want kids? definitely! 32. Are you popular? no, i dont think so... 33. Are you pretty? ehehehe, gorgeous! ahahah! 34. Do you have your own phone line? yeah, my cellphone. 35. Do you get along with your family? yep, except my dad, we kinda clash most of the time. 36. Do you have any piercings or tattoos? none. --------------------- Do you like... 37. Giving hugs? to my honey ofcourse. 38. Taking walks in the rain? no, i'd rather sleep and feel cozy! 39. The mall? Yes. 40. Go on stage? sometimes. --------------------- Do you... 41. Drink: yes. 42. Smoke: no. 43. Drugs: no. 44. Eat meat: Yes. 45. Date: i date my bf. 46. Sex: whatta?! 47. Eat sushi: no. 48. Bike: no. --------------------- Preferences 49. Hot or Cold: hot 50. Lace or Satin: Satin 51. Blue or Red: Blue 52. New or Old: new 53. Rain or Snow: rain 55. Wool or Cotton: Cotton 56. Rose or Daisy: Rose 57. Private school or public school: private 58. Plain milk or chocolate milk: Chocolate milk 59. Celsius or Fahrenheit: celsius 60. Spring or Fall: fall 61. Math or Art: both 62. One pillow or two: two 63. Dogs or Cats: Dogs 64. Adidas or Nike: nike 65. Coke or Pepsi: coke 66. Oranges or Apple: apple 67. Deaf or Blind: deaf 68. Pool or hot tub: pool 69. Blonde or Brunette: brunette 70. Chubby or Skinny: chubby 71. Tall or short: Tall 72. TV or Radio : TV --------------------- Personal Stance on... 73. Homosexuality? not against it. 74. Brand names? i just go for brand names when i like the material. 75. Abortion? no-no. 76. Religion? it's important to help my spiritual being. 77. Animal Rights? sure. 78. Love at first sight? not really. 80. Aliens? could be true. 81. Horoscopes? i do read them at times. 82. Heaven? i wanna go there when i die ^_^ 83. Hell? maybe there is and i definitely dont wanna go there when i die.. 84. Reincarnation? maybe. 85. Transvestites? maybe. 86. Boy bands? so gay! 87. Rap? cool at times. 88. 80's music? not a big fan.. 89. Punk? waste of time.. 90. What's the prettiest instrument? guitar 91. What's the prettiest part of the body? eyes. 92. Biggest fault? uhmm.... 93. Biggest fear? to fail.. 94. Do you live in the moment? yes... 95. Do you care about looks? not really. 96. Do you like your handwriting? no.. 97. Obsession? my webpage ^_^ 98. Looking forward to? to graduate from nursing!! 99. Favorite weather? cool, not cold.. 100. Do you ever wish you were somebody else? no...
:: 1st enrty of the day ::
|woodbridge| |.. watching MAKE OVER STORY, working on my LEARNING PLAN, answering some questions from here| oh man! i cant believe today is my last day off *again!*.. im not even thrilled to go back to hospital tomorrow... All Im looking forward to in my next day off, which is on Tuesday! Im gonna go straight to Aurora after my Monday day shift.. My mom and I might go shopping for some scrubs on Tuesday.. *im excited!* I've been reviewing some notes - Anatomy and Physio of the heart, PQRST waves, some electrolyte imbalances - but it's not like im giving it some serious attention... i dont know, i guess im so tired that all i wanna do is just bum around! sometimes, i feel like im never gonna be able to adjust to this whole nursing schedule... the shifts are too long, it's so time consuming (like i dont have a life at all!!), it's so0o0o tiring, and the schedule as a whole is so ridiculous!! why cant we just have 8hr shifts?! my mom has 8hr shifts, and i totally envy her.. But she works in a Nursing Home and I dont wanna work in a Nursing Home, atleast not for now.. I like the floor where I am, it's busy but it's very educational and I really do learn a lot.. My only issue is the TIME!! *sigh* Im currently working in my LEARNING PLAN right now.. it's due tomorrow and ofcourse, being the great Procrastinator that I am, here i am, trying to rush it off again!! But I could have started working on this earlier if I didnt have 4 night shifts in a row... Im gonna go to school and try to submit it tomorrow during my lunch break, i mean, like as if i have a choice!! it's due tomorrow, and my only free time is my lunch break.. I might go with Bessy coz she's planning to submit hers too during her lunch break.. I went to rose's site today and I read in her blog that her daughter has an ear infection.. i told her that the infection is called Otitis Media and its common among children... and wow! i amazed myself, i actually learned something from Nursing! ahahah! anyways, rose has a new "gig", it's called KUNG. - a site which asks nonsense questions, ehehe! check it out! i got his from there: 1.KUNG MAG ISA KA SA ISANG KWARTO,. SINO O ANO ANG MALIMIT MONG INIISIP? i usually think about school, my schedule, problems.... 2.KUNG BIBIGYAN KA NG ISANG MILYON AT GAGASTAHIN MO LANG SA ISANG ORAS,. ANO ANG UNANG UNA MONG BIBILHIN? wow! im definitely gonna buy a house first!! and then my BMW *yeah baby!* 3.KUNG MAKIKITA MO ANG DATI MONG GF/BF, ANO ANG UNA MONG GAGAWIN? uhmm... nothing? 4.KUNG NAGPUPUNTA KA SA PALENGKE/MALL?ANO ANG UNA MONG BINIBILI? what i really need to buy first 5.KUNG NALILIGO KA KUMAKANTA KA BA? ANONG KANTA? ofcourse! i usually sing anything that occurs in my mind... :: Wednesday, January 28, 2004 ::
|woodbridge|
|... not feeling too good...| i was saved by the weather last night... my preceptor phoned me up around 4pm to tell me that she coudnt make it to the hospital because of the weather - Go train was closed, her car was stuck in the snow. So she said we'll make up for the shift some other time... in the mean time she told me to get some rest coz she knows 4 nights in a row was pretty overwhelming for me.. oh well, thank God for that!! im not really feeling fine since sunday night - my last night shift... i feel so exhausted and on top of that, i think im coming down with a viral tonsillitis.. my lymph nodes are quite inflammed and it's causing me quite a discomfort.. thank God i dont have any fever and i can still swallow... anyways... nothing much has happened these past few days... i was just busy with my clinicals in the hospital... my teacher said i was pretty good for a pre-grad who's new on the floor - i knew my meds quite good, fast to adjust to the changes - uhmm..... she thought that way but i actually felt that i wasnt doing good at all... i need to do a lot more on my head to toe assessment, especially when im auscultating the lungs and listening to the different sounds... actually, i need to learn a lot more... since im on a Cardiovascualr Surgery Floor, i need to know the different dysrythmias, how to read an ECG, how to understand the different lab values, etc... there's so much!! the thing is, with my 12 hour shift, i dont get time at all to study when i get home.. i just wanna go straight to bed coz it's really exhausting! i only get to study when im on my way to the hospital... other than that, my mind is just not up for anything... oh well, we'll see what will happen to me in the end... glad im off today until tomorrow... i have to clean the house coz our new renters are coming in this Sunday... i have to fold the clothes since my bf did the laundry already.. and then..... i think that's it for today. :: Tuesday, January 27, 2004 ::
|woodbridge|
|... feeling malnourished..| im going to blog tomorrow... im on night shift again tonight.. i need to get some sleep!! :: Sunday, January 25, 2004 ::
|aurora|
|.... waiting till the clock hits 1130...| i havent been blogging lately... my schedule at the hospital is just terrible! i just got home about an hour ago from my 3rd night shift and im going again tonight for my 4th... gheez! it's crazy at the hospital even during nights... but i heard it was actually better at nights than days.. oh well, i guess that means i should be glad! anyways, so these 12hr shifts are killing me... my sleeping pattern is so distorted... i've been up since 4pm yesterday... im supposed to be sleeping now, but i will soon, i just wanna digest the food that i had 30 min ago... i think i better hit the bed coz i dont think im making any sense anymore.... :: Thursday, January 22, 2004 ::
|woodbridge|
|... lazy...| i just finished doing this new layout... it took me awhile coz I used Macromedia Fireworks, which I wasnt really used to... But i kinda got the hand of it... I was supposedly done with this layout last night, but I got lazy and watched American Idol, which was by the way, so hillarious! Anyways, I cant blog a lot right now.. I need to go to sleep coz Im on Night Shift tonight *ugh!* :: Tuesday, January 20, 2004 ::
|woodbridge|
|... relieved....| I was away for a couple of days... I thought that I would take some time off from the net to study.. I couldnt afford to lose my last chance and lose everything that I've worked so hard for.. I knew where I went wrong... I didnt study enough for the first exam and that's why i failed it... But it was all worth it... I've learned a lot from this whole experience - never ever take things for granted! I wrote the SUPPLEMENTAL exam today... it was so much harder than the first ones i've written... I almost thought that I would fail, but God is great! He gave me another chance to make things right! And I couldnt be any more happier! Im officially a PRE-GRAD NURSE!!!! yahoooo!!! :: Tuesday, January 13, 2004 ::
|woodbridge|
|... zombie-tized....| i've been up for 21 hours now..... i got home today from the hospital at 10am... the freaking bus that i got to ride was so slow, i think we stopped in every bus stop and every intersection!! thank God i didnt have to walk coz my bf waited for me to get home before he went to work... (thanx hon! mwah! ) i cant imagine myself walking today... the weather was not really good today i didnt meet with my teacher today.. she cancelled our appointment coz she said the snow where she lives was really heavy that she coudnt get her vehicle to move! thank God she called me on my cellphone or else I would have waited for nothing in school today.. anyways, i gotta hit the bed coz im really drowsy now..
|on duty at the hospitaL|
|... feeling sleepy..| my first night shift... it's been fairly quiet here, so that's good... i heard that we get to get a 2 hour break, so i guess i can take a good nap later to boost my energy... i just hope i get through this night... im meeting my teacher tomorrow after my shift... im really looking forward to sleep!! i miss my honey....... :: Monday, January 12, 2004 ::
|woodbridge|
|... optimistic...| i failed my MOCK exam by 2%.... i'd been bawling since the moment i found out about this, which was on friday morning, until i could cry no more... for someone who had never ever failed a major exam before, it was hard for me to accept this... i felt stupid, dumb, and down... but i thank those people who really boosted my energy and who keeps on supporting me.. and now, im back with an overflowing fighting spirit and confidence that i will be able to pass my rewrite.. i wanna thank: + GOD for helping me thru this tough time. + mon, my bf thanx hon for always being there for me no matter what.. you're right, life must go on and this is just a "challenge".. + jenny, my youngest sister thanx for making me realize that i need to pass this exam and reminding me that i am "the hope" of our family.. + my mom thanx for the words of wisdom, support and encouragement.. + kathlein thanx for the support and encouragement, and for reminding me to "be positive". + badette, bessy for empathizing with me and your encouragement + my teachers thanx for letting me do this rewrite and for your offer to help me focus on my weaknesses. + and if i forgot to mention some other names thank you so much and i really do appreciate your support and encouragement.. im back to my humane self and ready to face the music one more time... this time, i know what i want and i know i must get it.. i need to pass this exam, there's no way that im failing this, no, not when im THIS far, im 3 months away from becoming a nurse... i can do this! :: Thursday, January 08, 2004 ::
|woodbridge|
|... drained out...| i am severely traumatized by the MOCK exam that i wrote today.... I painfully wrote 2 exams, each containing 150 questions, and each one for 3 1/2 hrs..! could have been better if the exams were easy, but HELL NOH! they were fucking tough!! holy! like.... i mean.... shit! "tough" is not even enough to describe those exams! my first exam was from 8-1130am, and yeah it was tough! and it didnt help at all that there was a party at the cafeteria which was right below the room where we were writing the exam... the music was so loud enough to shake the entire building! i was drained out after that exam... next exam was from 2-530pm, and this was, oh hell, this one was 3x harder than the first...! it was exhausted, i was drained out and there i was struggling to answer every questions to the best of my ability to think and under time pressure! i came out of the room lifeless.... and so did everyone else! people were swearing and cursing as they came out of the room.... what a day! i just wish i pass... the teacher will post the grade tomorrow by 3-4pm... and if i dont pass, i'll have to rewrite the whole thing again - and that, oh hell, please, no, i dont wanna ever write that exam again! oh well, its compulsary that everyone passes this exam or they will be withdrawn from this semester.... and those who will be successful (and im really praying that im one of the lucky ones!!) will continue, and will sure gradute this April.. anyways... i will start on my 12hr shifts in the hospital this sunday, im not sad about it but im not thrilled either.... :: Wednesday, January 07, 2004 ::
|woodbridge|
|...sick...| i've been busy.... and sick these past few days, and it's just not amusing at all.. since weekend, i've been busy studying for my MOCK exam - kinda like an entrance exam - for Pre-Grad Nursing.. everybody thought the exam was going to be on Tuesday but it was postponed until Thursday, and that's tomorrow.. well, i though, "good for me!" coz i can study more... but i got sick and i have been spending more of my time resting and sleeping... but last night, i couldnt take it anymore, my tonsilitis is just getting worst and i couldnt swallow anymore... so this morning i went to this "walk-in clinic" not too far from here... after an hour wait for the doctor i finally got my medications!! finally! anyways... i cant blog too much today.. i need to rest, then study.. i cant afford to fail my exam tomorrow... so, wish me luck, i hope i do good.. by the way, i got this from joing city glamour.. 
:: Friday, January 02, 2004 ::
|aurora|
|... not in the mood to study...| new pictures are up - xmas and new year's pictures... i scanned all of them right away as soon as i got them from the shop.. wanna see them? click here!! as of the moment, im waiting till mon comes here in aurora.. he's coming over to pick me up with my stuffs... i decided to go back in woodbridge so that i can focus more on my studying.. obviously i cant get enough of my website whenever im here in the house becoz my computer in woodbridge does not have Adobe Photoshop installed. i hope i cover a lot of stuffs tomorrow.......
|aurora|
|... sleepy..| i've been doing a lot of thinking today.. i realized that i've come this far in my life, where the foundation of what i want in life is almost firmly panted on the ground, and it is up to me to make every dreams of mine a reality.. as i looked ahead of 2004, i see so many changes and if things will go my way, my dreams are about to come true.. but first and most importantly, i must graduate from Nursing... and i know, after this everything else will follow.. Inorder for me to change my life for the better and achieve my goals/plans/wishes for 2004, i've formulated a way and that is to focus my mind on certain goals that i need to achieve monthly.. and ofcourse, i have to be persistent and determined. Some of my goals for this year, in relation to my New Year's Resolution are: 1. to get rid of all my credit cards 2. to get a stable, good-paying part-time job for Jan to April 3. to earn and save money. 4. to pass the RN Board Exam 5. to get into Bachelors Degree program right after I pass the Boards.. 6. to help my mom pay her mortgage 7. to get my G2 Driver's Licence. 8. to settle down (?) - well, my bf and i have talked about it but..... things are not clear as crystal yet.. hopefully, when things go well.... everything will follow.. and so, yeah, these are just some of my goals.... and right now, im more than determined to achieve atleast most of these.. anyways, as for my monthly goal, for January, my goal is: *to get rid of my credit cards* *find a stable job* anyways.... my family and i with Mon had dinner at Canaan tonight. It was a buffet so obviously i ate a lot to make it worth the pay.. I was so full, but now im hungry again... After dinner we went home and put our Xmas tree and decors away.. We didnt take that long coz everyone helped including Mon... it was a happy feeling watching everyone in the house talking to my bf and entertaining him.. it gives, not only him, but me the feeling of acceptance.. This acceptance means a lot to me because it only means that my family has welcomed the idea that im old enough to make my own decisions and choices, and that they're happy becoz im happy... all in all, it was a happy new year's day... and if this is the case, i hope everyday is a new year's day ^_^ |
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QUEENZ | 27 | Gemini | resides in Toronto | happily married to MON | a happy mom to LUKE MERVIN and LiANNA MEGAN | employed as an RN but presently on Maternity Leave | unpredictable | spontaneous | simple-living | hopeless-romantic | self-confessed martyr | crazy for sweet stuffs | loves trying different restos in town | amateur web-designer |
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