:: Sunday, February 29, 2004 ::
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:: Sunday, February 29, 2004 ::
|woodbridge|
|..... exhausted.....| i just got home from the hospital... i had a quiet night, it was good.. i was at the Step Down Unit, had 2 patients the entire night.. one of my patient had a CVA about 3-4 hours before i came in the shift but its still a query.. we did a CT scan last night, but obviously we didnt find anything since it was still early... my patient is going for another one though after 24-48 hours more.. otherwise, things were good... my preceptor said she was so glad that i was back! i thought she missed me, but she missed me becoz it had been hell crazy this whole week that i was gone and she was glad i was back to do everything again! anyways, im really exhausted now.... gotta get some rest!! :: Saturday, February 28, 2004 ::
|woodbridge|
|.... sneezy.......| i talked to my mom last night and told her about my big decision of working in a Neuro floor right after im done with my pre-grad... im surprised that she agreed without any hesitation! she also told me that my Tita had volunteered to pay the $265.00 fee for writing my RN Board Exam in June - yipee! gotta call my Tita to thank her ^_^ anyways, i dont really have anything significant to Blog... im back to work tonight so i better get some sleep.... :: Friday, February 27, 2004 ::
|woodbridge|
|.... feeling strangely fine.....| i finally found the hypothetical answer as to why ive been having this lower abdominal pain for the past 5 days! this morning when i went to the washroom....... nah, never mind, i'll just keep it to myself... and besides, its still just a hypothetical guess although it is very possible since my mom went thru the same thing.. strangely enough, i feel good today.. i didnt have any more headaches nor the abdominal pain today... and surprise surprise, i didnt have to take an AdviL today, which is a big relief on my side becoz i dont want to be too drug dependent as much as possible.. im back to work tomorrow.... im feeling...... am feeling ok about it.. i did some little cheaty index cards that i can carry around in my pocket in the hospital.. i did some drug cheaty cards as well as the systematic head to toe assessment + day and night shift check lists... atleast i did something "productive" for work during my lazy 5 days off.. i've made up my mind today.... today im sure that i really wanna work in a Neuro floor after my pre-grad rotation.. i had a talk with Kath last night.. She works in a Neuro + Orthopedic + trauma floor right now in the same hospital that i am working... she sort of gave me a description of what the floor was like - heavy, which i already expected and partly like a general medicine floor... I also had a dream last night that i was working in a Neuro floor and i felt happy and satisfied - which is exactly what i want to feel... I wanna work where i know in my heart interests me.. If, in case, things wont work out like i've hoped (again), my next option is to work in a General Medicine Floor.. I've thought about working in the floor where i am right now, but i'd probably consider it if i have no other option - but not my floor though, maybe a cardio floor in some other hospitals i mean... feels soOo damn good, now that i've finally made up my mind! being a gemini, its not easy being myself you know... even i drive myself crazy with all these decision making - too undecisive! *sigh* :: Thursday, February 26, 2004 ::
|woodbridge|
|... sick(?)......| *sigh* i wish i was feeling ok..... this morning i had a terrible headache, and right now im having this lower abdomen ache again! damn! i wish i didnt have to take another AdviL for relief... i think im getting too drug dependent... anyways, i got carried away with the web cam.... and so came up with the following pictures... 
*sigh* atleast i wasnt bored at all ^_^ i changed most of my pictures too in "about me" section of my website with these pictures ^_^ :: Wednesday, February 25, 2004 ::
|woodbridge|
|..... undiagnosed......| i want to do so many things today but my body is not up for anything.... i think im coming down with another Pharyngitis and Im having a little headache right now... On top of that, i dont understand why Im feeling this achy feeling on my left lower abdomen and have this vomiting-like feeling.... i wanna diagnose myself but im too scared to even think about it becoz the only diagnosis thats in my mind right now is pretty serious.... argh! i hate feeling unwell...... :: Monday, February 23, 2004 ::
|aurora|
|... half awake...| i dont even know what to bLog... i have so many things to say but just dont have the enthusiasm to type and elaborate.... last night was pretty good in the hospital... i had to work with another RN since my preceptor was not around... we had to work in the Step Down Unit (SDU), kinda like a modified ICU on our floor... I wish we worked on the regular floor instead coz Im not really used to working in SDU, and i felt somewhat lost last night with what i was doing... and i really wish i did better to impress this RN who i worked with so that she could have something nice to say to my preceptor... i dont know what's going on in me... i've been trying to analyze where all these negative feelings are coming from coz it's really getting INTO me and im scared that it might eventually coz me to lose my sanity! i had a talk with one of the nurses on the floor last night and i knew that she used to work in a Neuro floor before.. I told her that i wanted so much to work in a Neuro floor for my Pre-Grad but I ended up in CardioVascular floor instead... and with this, i wondered that maybe the reason why im not really feeling up to work lately was becoz CardioVascular is not really my interest and that I've hoped so much in getting into a Neuro floor.. She told me that if i really want to work in a Neuro floor, and if that's really my interest then I should go for it coz "you gotta love what you do"... and i think she's definitely right... In fairness to CardioVascular floor, where i am now, it is a great floor... It's busy, which is what i love and you learn a lot... but i just cant seem to "feel" this floor and i feel so bad becoz i wish i do! My mom wants me so badly to work on this floor and i used to dream of becoming a Cardiologist and this is the closest that I could get.... But when this whole Neuro thing came up and after having the experience, everything just turned upside down.... OR maybe im just not liking this floor in particular becoz of some the "fault-finder" staffs, and unfortunately my preceptor happens to be one of the many.. OR maybe its a combination of everything? yeah, maybe.... but, i still have a couple more shifts until im done with my rotation on this floor... and based on my calculation, hopefully i'll be done by 1st week of April... im still hopeful that i will eventually LOVE this floor, if not, atleast trully LIKE this floor... we'll see what happens... I got a big mail today from College of Nurses of Ontario (the RN licensing College here in Toronto)... they sent me a booklet and applications for the RN Board Exam and Temporary License.. I have mixed feelings as usual about this - Im excited, happy but anxious... *sigh* my mom and i had a little talk today about where im planning to work and stuffs... she wants me to work here in Newmarket so that way i get to stay here in the house... i told her i prefer to work in some downtown hospital.. she said that it's still all up to me.. i feel kinda bad becoz another reason why i wanted to work far away is becoz i wanna be by myself, maintain my independence... i mean, im turnin 22 and i think im pretty old enough to be by myself... and ofcourse i didnt tell her that, didnt wanna hurt my mom's feelings after generously offering the house to me... *sigh* what a predicament! anyways, my top priority right now is just to get this Pre-Grad rotation done and start working coz everything just roots from one major problem - money... i need money! lots of money to - pay my TONS of over due bills (which is my biggest concern right now coz banks are starting to phone me up here in the house since last week), pay my Student Loan, help my mom with her mortgage..... aghhhh! i think my head is just about ready to explode with all these MONEY problems! i wish i was just a little gurL... life was so much easier, no worries, no problems..... i cant seem to find solutions to all these problems and they keep coming, one over another! *sigh* talk about no enthusiasm to type and elaborate! i think i said a little too much.... :: Saturday, February 21, 2004 ::
|woodbridge|
|... happy....| i skipped my clinical today (for the 2nd time!)... i made up a lousy excuse just to do so... i was awake on and off last night asking myselff "should i go or not today?", and when my alarm clock finally rang at 5am, that was it, my mind was made up that I am not going... *yipee* for some reason i know i should feel bad about it, but i am not... infact im so happy! :: Friday, February 20, 2004 ::
|woodbridge|
|.... watching Dawson's Creek and BLog hopin'....| I am a paranoid person and my paranoia right now is just so uncontrollable.. Im back to work tomorrow and Im not at all thrilled!! I know that by now, I should be much more confident about working in the hospital, but I just cant seem to feel that way.. And it's driving me insane! These weird thoughts that something bad might happen just keep filling up my head! I know for myself that I have enough knowledge, but unfortunately i dont feel like that at all.... my mind, my feelings, they are just so opposite and cant seem to match!! and i guess that is making me soOo paranoid, that i dont know which one to trust... I know I should trust my mind, but my feelings are just so strong, empowering that....... ugh!! i think im so weird........ totally weird! *sigh* what a way to start my day..... :: Thursday, February 19, 2004 ::
|woodbridge|
|... happy....| yipee! im off from work today and tomorrow... well, technically im not but my teacher cut my hours since i've worked more than 100 hours during these past 2 weeks... at first i was kinda upset about it, but in a way it made me even happier, i mean, who would'nt want to get 2 days off, right??! i must be crazy if i atleast dont appreciate this "blessing"... last Tuesday I was observing in the Operating Room... I got to watch heart Bypass x 4, plus an extra Lung biopsy since the patient was newly diagnosed with Pulmonary Fibrosis.. it was my second time watching this heart bypass.. it was even more exciting since i know the heart even better compared to my first time watching it during my 3rd sem. then yesterday, i was observing in the Catheterization Lab... nothing much exciting happened until about 4pm when one of the patients went into Cardiac Arrest.. I was able to see when all the doctors were rushing in the lab, trying to revive this patient, but I dont know what happened in the end.. I had to leave the Cath Lab to do my Mid-Term Evaluation with my teacher... anyways, got this new layout... it was originally supposedly a "brown" theme but i screwed up on that so i ended up with this instead... oh well, i like it but not really crazy about it... atleast i've got a new layout... it will be awhile again before i get to change this layout... in the meantime, questions for this week from KUNG 1.kung bibgyan ka ng pagkakataon na magpaplastic surgery ng mukha,. Sinong popular na tao ang ipapagaya mo sa mukha mo? hmm? i've never really thought about this... maybe Catherine Zeta Jones's face because she has a very beautiful face 2.kung ikaw ang mananalo bilang presidente,. ano ang unang una mong ipatutupad? president ng Pnas? gosh, i dont really know what's happening there right now so I cant really say anything... 3.kung wala kang date nung valentines day, san ka nagpunta? obviously i had a date, my bf.. we went to Casino Rama 4.kung halimbawang me natitira ka pang isang oras sa mundo,kanino mo ibibigay ang panahon na yon at ano ang gagawin nyo? uy grabeh naman... shempre i'll spend it with my loved ones... 5.kung na le late ka sa isang lakad or sa school ano ang malimit mong alibi? it's always the subway, but the thing is, im never usually late... :: Saturday, February 14, 2004 ::
|woodbridge|
|....home aLone...| *sighhhh* i think i had a better Friday the 13th than Valentine's Day............ *sighhh* :: Friday, February 13, 2004 ::
|woodbridge|
|...exhausted...| too busy to blog... just got home from work... i have 4 long day shifts and today was my only 2nd, 2 more shifts to go! i'll try to blog on Monday, when im off from work... need to catch some rest...... :: Monday, February 09, 2004 ::
|woodbridge|
|... zombie-tized...| i've been up since 2:30pm yesterday, went straight to my night shift and here i am.... im off today, atleast that's something good, but then im back again tomorrow for a long day shift this time... last night was quiet, i had 5 patients all together to manage and thank God everything worked out perfectly... i hope tomorrow is a good one too... i've been waiting for the questions this week on KUNG ^_^ and here they are.... 1.kung wala ka sa harap ng computer?nasaan ka?at anong ginagawa mo? im either studying, sleeping or watching TV.. 2.kung naglalagay ka ng pabango ,saan parte ng katawan? i only put perfume behind my ears and then spray a little on my clothes.. 3.kung mainlove ka ba sobra?anong pinakamatindi mong ginawa para sa pag ibig na yun? not really... i love my bf right now the most - we're living together and even planning to get married soon.. 4.kung nalalasing ka nagwawala ka ba?nakakalimutan mo ba ang mga ginawa mo? i've never been really THAT drunk, but during the closest-to-being-drunk i was really laughing a lot!! i tend to remember whatever i did... 5.kung nag aaway kayo ng kaibigan/GF/BF mo?sino ang nauunang nakikipagbati? kung sya,bakit hinde ikaw? ako ang unang nakikipagbati kasi mabait ako and di ko naman matitiis ang may kagalit lalo na pag-love ko ^_^ ok... that's it for now, gotta hit the bed... ZZzzzzz.......... ^_^ :: Saturday, February 07, 2004 ::
|woodbridge|
|... sad....| *sigh* so much for a day off... it's all over again.... im all dressed up, ready to go to work again tonight...... im not thrilled... i have a feeling that it's gonna be quiet tonight, but like what my preceptor has warned me before, i know i shouldnt count on it coz things do happen in the hospital when you least expect it.. :: Thursday, February 05, 2004 ::
|woodbridge|
|...relieved that tomorrow is finally a DAY-OFF!!...| We were so busy yesterday at the hospital... It has always been busy on the floor, but somehow yesterday and today were so overwhelming for me... YESTERDAY I had 3 patients originally when I came on the day shift, and 2 of them were discharged later.. Everything was actually going pretty smoothly until we recieved our 2 new admissions, 1 from the CVICU (Cardiovascular Intensive Care Unit) and 1 pre-op transferred from another hospital... these 2 had so many issues that really threw me off! the CVICU pt was C-diff (it's a contagious bacteria found in stool) +ve and had to be isolated, had severe Left Ventricular dysfunction, Congestive Heart Failure, High Cholesterol, oh my God! the pre-op pt was scheduled to have a bypass x 3 today (x 3 means 3 veins will be used to bypass the heart, veins from the legs and one arm), but after doing our health assessment, whoa! we didnt think she would really qualify for one! this lady is 84 years old, had hip and knee surgeries previously, have something on her back (i cant remember what it was!) have urethemia on both legs, rash on one arm, oxygen level at room air was 93%, on puffers and has had history of brochitis! gheez! we had to call almost every discipline in the hospital to refer this patient for assessment - Physiotherapist, Surgeons, Nurse Practitioner, ugh!! We were able to complete everything that we needed to do at exactly 730pm, just in time for the shift change and endorsement... it was tough, it was overwhelming that I had to cry this whole thing to my boyfriend the moment i saw him..... and TODAY...... i thought today was going to be better one, but hell noh! even worst!! i got the same patients that I had yesterday.... and then I had a new admission in the afternoon.. Pt (1) pre-op transfer :: i was in the middle of my 2nd pre-op wash when the surgeon came in and notified us that my patient will not be safe to have the bypass because of the urethemia in the legs, rash in one hand, and the fact that she was ambulating poorly now, how much more after surgery?! she'd be a vegetable definitely if she underwent that bypass, i mean, she's old and her recovery will be tough!! so, she's gonna go through PTCA instead on Monday... PTCA is a non invasive procedure... Pt (2) CVICU +ve c-diff :: this guy! this guy is interesting.... i dont even wanna go through the whole story about this guy.. I came in, found him way off, behaving inappropriately (jumping off the bed even when put on restraints, episodes of high anxiety and silence), very resistive (didnt want me to do Vital Signs, didnt want to have his blood drawn, didnt want anything at all!), very uncompliant (didnt want to take his medications, didnt want to go back to his bed or sit appropriately), saying inappropriate words (told my preceptor that he wanted to "suck face" with her - which really disgusted me!!!), which led us to suspecting that he needed a Pych consult... at the end, we got an order of Risperidone, an anti-pychotic medication... Pt (3) :: didnt mention anything about this patient yet... the only thing that was going on with him was he had a Continuous Bladder Irrigation because of his Benign Prostate Hypertrophy (Prostate is enlarged) and bllod in the urine... I had to monitor his urine output evety 4 hours!! But in the end, we just discontinued the irrigation because he didnt have any blood in the urine and he was doing well... he's gonna go home tomorrow if his blood works ok.. Pt (4) :: this guy is the new admission... fresh from CVICU, had a bypass yesterday.. He came in today about 2pm.. He didnt really have a lot of complications, i just had to start him on an IV because his blood pressure was low and the doctor thinks that a little fluid might push his blood pressure up.. He had a foley, which i think can come out tomorrow and a chest tube suction, which i think can come out tomorrow as well... He needed something for nausea and pain earlier so i just gave him a Gravol injection and 2 tabs Percocets... *sigh* it's been 2 crazy days and i really do think I deserve my day off tomorrow!! I need a break! i think im gonna lose my sanity if i dont! :: Tuesday, February 03, 2004 ::
|aurora|
|...watching an Indian Movie...| Im here in Aurora right now... I went straight here last night after my shift in the hospital... I havent seen my family for more than a week.. I'll be going back to Woodbridge later though.. Less than 2 weeks more and it's Valentine's! my boyfriend said we're gonna go out, but I think Im working on that day.... so, i dont know yet what's gonna happen... I know for sure I cant skip anymore clinical days.. I've actually taken up more extra shifts because I have a feeling Im gonna be short of hours if I dont by April 16... *sigh* Anyways, my mid term is coming up, and that's in 2 weeks time too! man! that's so fast! and before u know it, it's April and Im done! uhm, that is ofcourse, if i do meet the expectations of my preceptor... Im really lazy... I wanna blog, but my mind is not up to doing anything.... :: Sunday, February 01, 2004 ::
|woodbridge|
|... indifferent...| i skipped clinical today... anyways, i dropped by rose's site and i found this... 
thanx rose! something to do since im bored... i got this from KUNG... 1.kung bibigyan ka ng pagkakataon na makausap ang isang patay na ,sino yon?at bakit? uhmm..... no one.. 2.kung sabay nalulunod ang nanay/tatay mo at gf/bf mo sino una mong sasagipin? ehehe, di naman ako marunong lumangoy, sila lahat marunong, so i guess ako ang dapat nilang sagipin ^_^ 3.kung nadulas ka sa harap ng maraming tao ano ang gagawin mo? tatayo ako kaagad and magbo-bow, ahahah! 4.kung nadukutan ka,hahabulin mo ba yung mandurukot o sisigaw ka lang ng mag nanakaw, magnanakaw? sisigaw na lang ako, mabagal akong tumakbo eh, ehehe! 5.kung me gusto kang iparetoke sa sarili mo alin yon? uhmm... siguro my shoulder |
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QUEENZ | 27 | Gemini | resides in Toronto | happily married to MON | a happy mom to LUKE MERVIN and LiANNA MEGAN | employed as an RN but presently on Maternity Leave | unpredictable | spontaneous | simple-living | hopeless-romantic | self-confessed martyr | crazy for sweet stuffs | loves trying different restos in town | amateur web-designer |
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