:: QueenZviLLe ::

current mood >>

:: Monday, November 29, 2004 ::
+ money talk +

home..
on the down-lo..

i dont feel up for anything today.. infact, i havent felt up for anything for the past few days.. i dunno, must be the freezing weather freezin' my brain up or turning my hormones upside down..

i need an extra part time job on top of my full time job at the hospital.. i wanna treat myself this xmas just becoz i think i deserve it.. it just dawned on me that i've been working my ass off for half a year now.. i pay my bills, make both ends meet and at the same time generously help my loved ones financially (plus mentally, physically and spiritually with not much in return) that i've totally missed saving some for myself.. *shocking!* come to think of it and after looking at how much i've already earned, by now i should've been able to buy atleast most of the things that i've been wanting to buy for myself but no.... the most expensive thing i was able to buy for myself so far since i started to work as a nurse was my cellphone.. i bought some clothes and that's pretty much it.. *sigh* is it selfish to think of myself for once? i've been too busy (kind and nice enough too) attending to others' needs first before mine - helping my mom, my boyfriend, buying stuffs for my sisters... *tsk!* i think it's my turn now! right??
i must enjoy my income.. after all, i've worked hard for it.. *gosh!*
my job does pay well but it aint no easy, no kiddin'! but i love my job, seriously!!

ok, ok... that came out pretty strong *hehehe!*
i will try to enjoy my hard earned money after im done buying everyone else's xmas gift ^_^ (and my sister's 18th birthday gift for January)

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:: Thursday, November 25, 2004 ::
buZZy bee!

home..
nothing much..

and so i've been busy myself with some stuffs - work and more work, and life itself..

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i had to deal with a death of a patient for the first time last week (Tuesday) it wasnt as bad as i've thought it'd be - you know, seeing and touching, and cleaning, and wrapping a dead body.. it was quite creepy at first but it was aight.. good thing that the patient was a DNR (Do Not Rescucitate) patient, so his death was somehow expected.. the sad thing was, his family never even came on that day to see him for the last time.. he had a stroke in the morning and the family, when phoned, did not wanna go ahead with any procedures to further investigate what happened with the patient.. when i did my initial rounds in the morning, i saw him with tears in his eyes.. i think he was fed up and tired, and for sure felt like nobody cared for him that's why he didnt fight for his life anymore.... *my his soul rest in peace*

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my boyfriend's lolo was finally released from the hospital last Friday.. unfortuantely, not much of any progress has happened during his hospitalization.. the stroke had left him half-paralyzed.. but the good of all is he's stable now..

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lately, i've been debating about what academic course/upgrading that im gonna take next year.. i dont know, but i feel strongly for further getting involved in health care and would like to take mine to the next level - Medicine.. I can imagine myself being one, but I cant imagine myself going through tons of school works, books and more books, EXAMS.... *LOL!* anyways, it's a tough decision and im still contemplating about it.. but i think the idea is nice... BUT i still need to think hard about this...

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i've started doing some Xmas shopping over the weekend.. it was fun but definitely exhausting!! so far i've only completed my/our gifts to my mom, my Tita, and nugget (the dog)

* this is my and mon's gift to my Tita - a food processor which i was able to get for a reasonable price at Zellers *

* this is my and my sisters' gift to my mom - a kitchen radio which she can attach under kitchen cabinets *

* this is a pet rug for nugget - yeah, even the dog gets something from everyone for xmas *

on my next pay-cheque, im gonna try to cover everyone else's xmas gift:
_Dad: a small closet from Ikea.
_SheryLL: a pair of K-swiss shoes
_Jenny: a PS2
* i hope my sisters are not reading this, hehehe! *
_Uncle Henry: a nice puzzle from Mind Games
_Aunt Maureen: a nice sweater from Blue Bayou
_Mon: a *censored!!*
* sorry hon, somehow it's gotta to be a surprise ^_^ *

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i changed my BG music, have you noticed it? Im soo crazy about this song - Diary by Alicia Keys...

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Play time baby!

(A) First, recommend to me:
1. a movie
2. a book
3. a musical artist, song, or album

(B) I want everyone who reads this to ask me three questions, no more, no less. Ask me anything you want.

(C) Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends to ask you anything; say that you stole it from me.

I stole this from peepai.

RefLected by QueenZ @ 2:04 PM :: ::

:: Monday, November 15, 2004 ::
senti-mode

home...
seriously reflecting...

im all alone so that must be the reason why im on my senti-mode right now and feels like reflecting on how things have been with me lately....

*sigh* i've got a lot to tell, i know... but i just dont know how to put them in words... *siigh* the only words i could think of right now after spending a good couple of minutes staring at the monitor and looking at myself as if i was someone else are why? and when? i dunno.... i wish i was good with expressing what's really inside and putting them into words rather than leaving them unexpressed most of the time..

*sigh*

ok, forget it... forget it... let's leave it for next time.. im "speechless" and just cant find the right words today...

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i downloaded a couple of new songs that i like and downloaded them into my Net MD... I havent changed the songs in my MD for months that I got tired of using it.. But now that I have new songs like My Boo, If I Aint got you, my net MD is alive again and back into business! *hehehe!*

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:: Tuesday, November 09, 2004 ::
Tuesday movie day!

home
..jaz chiLLin'...

i went back to work yesterday.. although it was busy, i was ok... and today im off again!! *yipee!* i woke up at noon.. feels soOo good!! i love to sleep!!

i went to downtown Toronto in the afternoon to buy my friend a pair of nursing uniform.. her birthday is coming up pretty soon and i thought that it would be nice to give her this as a gift instead of some teddy bear thingy.. and then my boyfriend and i rented DVDs after from our fave Video Store since it's Tuesday and the rent is cheap ($1.99 ea) :

The Ju-On movie, from what we heard is the original version of The Grudge.. I havent watched the Ju-On yet but i hear it's scarier than any other scary movie like The Exorcist.. *goosebumps* We're gonna watch all night long until tomorrow night since I wont be back to work till Thursday.. *yehey!*

My bf's lolo was supposed to go home sometime this week but unfortunately another complication occured over the weekend... His lolo had a GI (gastrointestinal) bleed and had to be transfused with blood.. we visited him on Sunday and he seemed ok.. *sigh* hopefully things get better from here on..

my driving exam is in a month's time... im getting excited!! i wanna pass this exam so badly!! i wanna start driving and most definitely wanna have my own car by next year - January atleast!! Lately im crazy about either Mazda ZoomZoom or Toyota Rav4...

arent they beautiful?? *sigh* I cant wait!!!

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I with my sisters - Sheryll and Jenny.. spending some rare quality times over some hot chocolate at Secon Cup on Sunday morning...

RefLected by QueenZ @ 8:42 PM :: ::

:: Saturday, November 06, 2004 ::
just some luck!!

home
... exhausted...

i worked my last night shift on Thursday (04.11.04) night (for 2 weeks) and boy! it wasnt the night i had totally imagined it would be compared to my other night shifts.. i had 7 patient-assignment and 1 of which was totally confused and lunatic.. i was busy from the very beginning onwards until the very last minute!! my confused and lunatic lady kept climbing out of the bed and so i had to restrain her finally at 1:30am!! and then, just when i thought i could finally have a "break", one of my most stable patients, who was actually ready to go home in the morning, got all short of breath and her oxygen saturation dropped from 96% to 83% on room air... i paged the Respiratory Therapist and the Residents right away... and the craziness started from there... this patient started becoming diaphoretic, pale and the residents had come to a conclusion that she could be having a Myocardial Infarction.. We did ECGs, stat CXR, ABGs, we pushed Lasix thru her saline lock and gave her ASA x 2.. She's becoming really unstable and we were so close to calling a "code blue".. the residents have decided right away that she should be transferred to the Intensive Care Unit immediately... and so the ICU team was called in... My patient was intubated right away and at 4am, she was already in the ICU..

ok... so i thought i was finally 1 patient-free, but no... at 5:30am i had a new admission from ER... and boy! another confused lady!! *gawd!* and this one too had to be restrained since in just 30 minutes, i already found her climbing out of the bed and pulling her IV tubings out twice!! *arrgghhh!!!* what a night!! im just glad that the people i worked with were very helpful and helped me all the way!! and thank God i still managed to go thru that night!!

yesterday, as my 1st day-off , we went to Casino Rama in the afternoon and watched Olivia Newton-john's concert.. it was fun... but the most fun part was when we were gambling in the casino... i played $20 on this 25-cent slot machine and i won some $60!! and then my boyfriend and I decided to play on this game called "sik-bho" (im not sure what the name is exactly, but who cares!) our very first bet was $5 on the number 4 and guess what?! we won $900 baby!!! yeah!!! what a night!!! my boyfriend and i shared our prize!! i got $500 and my boyfriend got $400 since it was his number and the $5 was my money... we were so happy!!!

whatever night i had at work was very well compensated at the Casino Rama!! *LOL!*

so today, we went shopping!! tee-hee!! ^_^ and it sure drained me out... i think imma get some nap.. i'll try to visit blogs tomorrow ^_^ Have a great weekend everyone!!

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