:: Sunday, February 27, 2005 ::
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just woke up.. i took a big pill (capsule) a few days ago, probably 3 days ago, but i still feel like it's still sitting somewhere down my throat / chest.. i've taken about a gallon of water already thinking and hoping that this feeling may eventually disappear but it doesnt seem to be working.. whenever i eat lately it feels like i've eaten a huge spoonful all at once that my chest hurts when i start swallowing, especially the part when the food is already down my esophagus.. it's not like the chest pain associated with heart attack or what not.. nothing like that at all.. but i do feel suffocated at times, that is when i eat... oh, and it hurts my back too.. i definitely dont think this is heartburn, it certainly doesnt feel like one.. my mom thinks that the pill that i took must have gotten into my lungs.. but i highly doubt it only because i was upright when i took the pill and i certainly didnt feel like i choked, and also because of the anatomical position of the pain / discomfort im having... i didnt sleep very well last night becoz of this.. i felt like i was choking and my back was really hurting.. i've been wondering for days now what's going on... i just hope this goes away soon... + + + so, have you seen my new ride? (pls. refer to my previous post for pic) i was having some second thoughts about it because it is really nice, i love it as a matter of fact.. it looks heavy to drive but i've been used to driving vans anyways so i got used to driving it right away.. but it's expensive on gas! *mhan!* like seriously expensive on gas!! so yesterday, my bf and i went around town looking for a trade and there i realized how lucky i was to even land on this beautiful baby for a very reasonable price with a very reasonable insurance too.. nothing can beat or top that so i decided to keep it... and besides, i work hard so i deserve something nice for me... and also everyone around says it is beautiful.. ^_^ + + + Im working 6 days this week! *dammit!* wednesday will be my only day off.. im ONLY ceratinly looking forward to wednesday! + + + Unfortunately, mon's lolo passed away on friday night unexpectedly at his tita's house.. it was really sad because his lolo was actually ready to fly back to Manila this coming Tuesday.. if you recall, his lolo came here in Toronto to visit last year but a week after he arrived he had a stroke and was then hospitalized until early December.. his lolo then just stayed in his tita's house to gain back his much needed energy and strength in order for him to fly back to Manila.. mon's sister, who happens to be a nurse and a physiotherapist, flew here to make that happen.. so after 2 months, lolo was a lot better and stronger; however he was still confined to bed and wheelchair alone due to the residuals of the stroke that he had - left his body half paralyzed.. but the doctor had finally given him a GO sign that he's ready to go back home.. everything was ready for tuesday.. but everything suddenly turned sour on friday night.. mon's lolo took his last breath and we couldnt do anything to revive him.. it was a major shock for everybody.. So last night, we were at the funeral home to pay respect.. *may his soul rest in peace* we know he's happy in heaven now.. his body will be flown to Manila sometime this week.. :: Saturday, February 26, 2005 :: + tada! +
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nothing.. my ride....  + Ford Explorer xls +  :: Monday, February 21, 2005 :: sooo not in the mood
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bLank... i probably woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning, although there's only one side that i usually get up from.. im just not up for anything.. i woke up pretty early today, 8:30am, which is totally unusual for me on my day off.. i started cooking, shovelled some snow in the drive way, and did some laundry.. we went to pick up the car, atleast that's what my bf and i thought we were going to do but the car was not ready for pick up, again.. they said tomorrow, again.. a little bit of disappointment there, again, but i've gone a little bit used to it by now.. so tomorrow it is, and hopefully that's the last of it!! *sigh* im just really not up for anything... must be that monthly thing giving me a little bit of a hint that it's coming soon.. yeah, that's probably it.. *ugh* why do we ladies have to go through this pain every single month! i was supposed to cook some spaghetti sauce and marinade some beef this evening but im soo not in the mood... im such a lazy ass, i just wanna watch TV, surf the net and munch on some potato chips... hopefully im on a better mood tomorrow..   oh by the way, i am so looking forward to April 9 - we're watching BoyzIImen live in concert!! yeah baby!! thank God to Casino Rama *LOL!* my mom and Tita got free tickets because they're Casino Rama members.. good thing they gamble every once in awhile *ahem* i love BoyzIImen!! anyways, found this while i was surfing the net.. something 'educational'..  :: Friday, February 18, 2005 :: new car coming very soon!
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TGIF!! i had a good day at work yesterday... they placed me in the cath lab yesterday.. the work was a lot lighter compared to our inpatient unit.. you see, the staff nurses on our floor are trained to be able to work on all the divisions of our unit - the general inpatient floor, cardiac acute care unit and the cathlab.. So I was in full commando of the cath lab yesterday.. it was busy but it was light, and i wasnt that stressed because all i had to do was prepare patients for the angiogram test and look after them in the recovery area.. i dont work in the cathlab that often, and i actually used to hate working there before because the hours tend to go by so slowly, you know what i mean... but lately, with the stressors in the inpatient unit, i'd rather work in the cath lab for a change!! im finally getting used to driving around town by myself *so proud and happy!*.. today i had a workshop to attend to in the morning in the hospital.. my bf let me drove his car to my work, well sort of... the plan was, i was going to drive to the nearest subway station, park the car there and then take the subway.. but this morning i couldnt find any free parking space and i was running a little late so i had no choice but to drive all the way to the hospital.. i think i did well.. not to mention, i drove to downtown Toronto, which is a very busy city with all the buses and street cars and all other vehicles over crowding the roads! and then, this afternoon i drove my bf to his work and im picking him up later... im having so much fun driving!!! (can you tell?!) and oh! oh! i've finally settled all the paper works for the car this afternoon and im soo ready to get my car by monday!!! *ughh!* the anticipation is killing me, and even my bf coz i know he wants to drive it too!! *eekkk!* i cant control myself, i cant wait to tell you guys what i bought!! ok, enough now, i think if i say another word i might actually spill it all out... *zips mouth* anyways, im glad i have the weekend off... have a great weekend everyone!! :: Wednesday, February 16, 2005 :: free massage!
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tired... it looks like almost every nurses that are getting assigned to that Portuguese patient that i had issues with on my previous post are starting to have their own issues as well with him and his family.. well, im not at all surprise.. im just glad i havent been assigned to him since that incident.. i dont think i can take anymore of them! anyways, we had free 15 minute massage today at work!! isnt that interesting?? i think it was a gift from the hospital administration or something.. although i was busy today, i made sure that i get my chance on the hot seat no matter what! ohhh! it was soo good i almost fell asleep!! 15 minutes was not enough! it was so relieving and i felt so light right after.. [but ofcourse nothing beats my hon's massage *teehee!*] i was really stressed out at work today.. im starting to feel some of my back muscles getting sore now.. *sigh* i wish we get free massages everyday at work ^_^ im so close to bringing my car home... hopefully by this weekend coz i'll be signing papers on friday already ^_^ i'll keep you posted! need to hit the bed now coz im back to work again tomorrow.. :: Monday, February 14, 2005 :: here we go again!
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hating almost aLL Portuguese! i just wanna let my frustrations out (again) before anything else... I was almost ready to say that my day was "prefect" yesterday at work when i had a big argument with the family members of my Portuguese patient.. all i wanted to emphasize was that the hopsital policy allows 2 visitors at a time and we have a waiting room so that family members can take turns when visiting.. and this is only because we want to protect the patient from being overwhelmed as well as other patients in the room obviosuly, does that make sense? what's so hard to comprehend about that?? my patient had 4 adults + 2 children visitors visiting at the same time, and take note: this was in a room with 4 patients too.. so i said exactly what the hospital policy stated in a nice way ofcourse and what did i get in return? "You nurses have different rules all the time! why are you not letting us visit my father in law who is dying?! we have a big family and all we want to do is spend some time with him before he dies! i hope that when you're on death bed someone tells your family the same thing, that they are not allowed to visit!" - hello? i didnt see that coming so where did that come from?? that really threw me off!! i mean who wouldnt?? did i say they were not allowed to visit?? and *jesus christ!* the patient is not dying, but he will eventually because of the small cyst that they found in his lungs, but he's not dying, he has more years to live for!! and there's no such thing as dying and remains a FULL CODE patient.. what kept me fuming was he kept yapping about it again and again, and added "Why? Who do you work for? huh? The tax payers" - well excuse me you son of a bitch! im a tax payer myself so dont start with me with that!! our nurse in charge was called and the son of a bitch said the same things to her.. he better not show up again coz i am definitely calling the nursing supervisor of the hospital next time with security guards.. oh he's definitely getting it, oh yeah coz that's how seriously angry he made me! in the first place i dont really like being assigned to his father in law... he's a pain and a complainer... he complains all the time about the medications he takes and the blood works we do all day... well if that's the case get out of the hospital gaddamit! you know what, even after all those, the patient and his family should be thankful that we nurses have GREAT patience looking after him! this is not the first time i've dealt with a Portuguese family... this is just one of the many and i cant help myself but say that i HATE Portuguese (in general) patients!! [if you look back in our world history, they never really showed good manners ever since ] *ugh!* i really really hate them... sorry if by this, i might offend some people but this is my blog and i have the right to express myself.. no matter how you look at what happened, those words that said were really strong, degrading and painful.. and like what i said, this is just one of the many other incidents that i've come to deal with. + + + on a brighter note, it's valentine's day... plans anyone? my dad gave my mom a bouquet of pink roses last night..  + how shweet + my boyfriend and i dont have big plans.. he's picking me up after work and then, dunno, maybe eat out or something.. i had Valentine's lunch with my family.. my mom cooked lasagna and meatballs...   + + + anyways, im really not up for anything coz the incident yesterday had really emotionally affected me.. and knowing that im back tomorrow at work, for 4 straight days makes it even worst... *sigh* you gotta be strong to be a nurse, really!! need i say more? :: Saturday, February 12, 2005 :: I've been tagged!
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cold.. i was tagged by ate Thess, and here's what i have to do... answer the questions below and pass them on to 3 other bloggers.. so check it out coz i might have passed it on to you ^_^ What is the total amount of music files on your computer? just 124 MB, we've cut back on downloading.. The CD you last bought? The Diary of Alicia Keys. What was the last song you listened to before reading this message? hehehe, obviously whatever is playing on my website. Write down five song that you often listen to or mean a lot to you. 1. If I aint got you - by Alicia Keys 2. Lovers and Friends - Usher and company 3. Since you've been gone - Kelly Clarkson 4. What are you waiting for - Gwen Steffani 5. Diary - Alicia Keys i just like them all at the moment Who are you going to pass this stick (3 bloggers) to and why? * drum roll* i will pass this to: 1. Fides - coz she's a frequent blogger. 2. Shari - i was playing a random pick and my mouse pointed on her name.. 3. Michelle - my mouse pointed on her name as well.. :: Friday, February 11, 2005 :: yesterday in history!
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feeling s!ck.. suddenly, i dont feel too good... im feeling like im coming down with some sort of flu... *tsk!* not good at all.. anyways, i had the craziest day at work yesterday.. i dont complain a lot, compared to most of my co-workers by the way, but my assignment yesterday was really HEAVY.. i had 5 patient load, one of which was really really unstable, who was fit to be in the ICU actually rather than on our floor.. an 88 y.o., FULL CODE and having Supraventricular Tachycardia.. great! just great! i mean, *wtf?!* i know we're a Cardiac Unit but i didnt think that he was actually on the right unit considering his situation.. this guy could have CODED (cardiac arrest) during my shift! that would have been the event and excitement of the day, but no, i didnt wanna go there - doing chest compressions and all.. i had a patient before who almost CODED and i never want that to happen again.. what upset me the most was, after all the HARD WORK i did the whole day, the family had decided to make him a DNR (Do not Rescucitate) only just an hour before my shift was over... like seriously, come on! that could have been done earlier on during the day so that way i didnt have to run here and there assisting doctors for this and that! *sheesh!* i was on my feet the whole day!! if anything, for the most part, i'd rather deal with a difficult patient than with an unstable patient... and that's why i dont wanna work in ER and ICU. *sigh* ok, enough of that.. mon and i went to this car store today and saw this really somewhat affordable but very nice vehicle that we really like.. im not gonna say much... let's just wait till i get my car loan and then i'll spill, although i cant really stop talking about it coz i just love it.. ^_^ ok, im gonna stop now before i actually talk about it... *cross-fingers* i really hope i get a car loan.. on a different note, i wanna watch The Hitch.. anyone seen it yet? I know they had a good publicity thingy on The Oprah.  :: Wednesday, February 09, 2005 :: nothing reaLLy..
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tired... there's really nothing much to blog about... went to work today, it was aight, same old stories... im back to work again tomorrow and im NOT looking forward to it.. i had a patient who has major psychiatric issues going on and i honestly hate dealing with these kinds of patients... and poor me coz im gonna have him again tomorrow.. *sigh* anyways, forget that... my poor baby is sick, itchy throat and colds *tsk!* you need a dose of my TLC... ^_^ i hope you get better soon hon... *mwah!* i was out with mon yesterday looking for some good deals on 2nd hand cars.. we saw some and we're still gonna look for some more on friday maybe, or saturday even.. *im just soo excited coz im sooo close to getting my own car!!* ^_^ *yipee! yipee!* but other than that, there's really nothing much to blog about... so, im just gonna post another picture: 
+ mon and me + in the meantime ** HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR to aLL!! ** and im hitting the bed now.... g'nyt! :: Sunday, February 06, 2005 :: @ downtown Tdot
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exhausted.. we went to the Nursing Job Fair today at Sheraton Hotel Toronto and at the same time walked around downtown... 
+ Lizelle and Mon at the subway, on the way to downtown + 
+ me and mon + 
+ @ the sheraton hotel after the nursing job fair + 
+ nathan philips square + 
+ Lizelle and me with an unknown creature + 
+ subway, on our way home + :: Thursday, February 03, 2005 :: + some things you may not know about me +
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feels half rested.. Five things you may not know about my time in school 1. i did not attend my highschool graduation purposely for two reasons - it was on the first week of June and during those times i wasnt still enrolled in any College/University; so as soon as i was done with my finals and knew that i passed, i flew to Manila to find any University that would still accept me.. and second of all, i couldnt accept the fact that i was graduating as a Salutatorian.. all through out my highschool life never did our 2nd honor make it to the 1st place.. he was the principal's son by the way.. everyone in the school knew that something wasnt right.. and im pretty sure he knew that too.. when the final marks were posted, my average was 93.00 and his was 93.01.. so yeah, there you go. 2. my very first choice in College was Architecture but since i was late for the actual enrollment, i did not make it and ended up in Computer Science instead. 3. When i was in UST, i did not really bother much about my studies coz i was a lot more interested in singing for the UST College of Science Glee Club.. i would spend my evenings at our rehearsals and by the time i got back to my dorm, i was so tired i'd go to sleep right away instead of studying for my next day's class or doing my assignments.. but thank God that even after all those, i did not fail anything.. but who cares, i left UST after 2 yrs for Toronto. 4. I was the only Filipino student in my class and the eldest Filipino student in my school at The English School back in Dubai since Grade 5 - Grade 8. 5. When I was in elementary, i had fun counting the number of boys who had a crush on me *LOL!* Five things you may not know about the job i had 1. i started my very first job in Toronto as a full time crew at Harvey's and Swiss Chalet at Aurora's branch.. when i started going to school, i became a part time crew working every Friday and Saturday nights only. 2. When Harvey's and Swiss Chalet was not enough, i started working for McDonald's as well, and that was from Monday to Thursday evenings. 3. I'd love to cook and stay in the grill rather than take customer's orders and deal with their complaints. 4. I loved being the closing manager (at Harvey's and Swiss Chalet) since i got to boss around people especially those crews who annoyed me the most. 5. When the boss was not around I gave free meals to those crews who did their jobs well. Five things you may not know about my onlife life 1. I did not really care much for internet until i got addicted to PEx (pinoyexchange.com) and TEx (ustecxhange.com) and that was in 1999. 2. I stopped PEx-ing and TExing since i did not have the time anymore; and also my boyfriend and i had an argument about these so to avoid that, no more PEx and TEx. 3. Since i came here in Toronto, I have more socializing going on here on the net than meeting my friends in person. 4. I find this blog very helpful especially when im having a very rough day and if i have no one to express myself to... If it wasnt for this blog, i'd probably be insane right now! 5. what i usually do on the net: blog, visit blogs, and friendster. Five things you may not know about my home life 1. When Im at home, I love staying in my room and i just simpy surf the net, watch TV or sleep as much as i can. 2. We stay mostly in the kitchen but i dont usually like cooking.. i tried but i just cant get myself to love it. 3. When Im at home and watching TV, i usually watch shows from Food TV during the day.. 4. We dont usually eat home foods.. we usually have some deliveries or we eat out. 5. My sisters dont eat as much Filipino dishes as I, my boyfriend, mom and dad do. Five things you may not know that i desperately want 1. I desperately want to save some cash, not a lot, but i just wanna save. 2. I need a car. 3. I want an income raise! 4. I desperately want mon's papers to be fixed as soon as possible coz my patience is soon to run out.. 5. I want the winning numbers to tomorrow's lottery! Five things you may not know about what i do in a typical day 1. my typical day would be a 12 hour day or night at work, supper in the evening or breakfast in the morning; shower before bed, blog when i have some minutes to spare and sleep. 2. during my days off, it would either be going up to Aurora to visit my parents and sisters or cleaning the house in woodbridge.. 3. when im being lazy, i usually just stay in bed, sleep or watch TV. 4. i surf my friendster most of the time, and visit blogs as much as i can. 5. i cook some food ahead of time - tomorrow's meals, etc. |
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QUEENZ | 27 | Gemini | resides in Toronto | happily married to MON | a happy mom to LUKE MERVIN and LiANNA MEGAN | employed as an RN but presently on Maternity Leave | unpredictable | spontaneous | simple-living | hopeless-romantic | self-confessed martyr | crazy for sweet stuffs | loves trying different restos in town | amateur web-designer |
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