:: Monday, May 30, 2005 ::
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just chiLLin'.. i thought i wasnt gonna last the whole weekend at work with this whole attitude of mine set at dont-want-to-do-bedside-nursing-no-more, but surprisingly i was fine.. i think that whole attitude was mainly brought about by the fact that i had a week off from work or i was just my being 'ol lazy self.. and having said that, i realize now that having long days off is very good but at the same time harms me in so many ways in the long run - mentally and spiritually i should say.. let's see now, within this year alone i dont remember how many times i've had one to two weeks of holidays from work.. i should have known better! my mind rots when im away from work.. i love my job despite its great ups and downs and despite the number of times i've complained about it.. i think i need a great deal of self-motivation and the only way for me to continue embracing my profession is to keep myself moderately addicted to work, or atleast to anything that will interest me to work.. hahaha, i guess you can call that my self-proclaimed self control.. Over the weekend, i've decided (out of impulse again!) to take up a nursing course this summer - you know, just to keep my mind from getting rotten or what not.. Luckily i found the Health Assessment Course that i've been thinking of taking up since last year is open for registration.. Needless to say, i did get myself registered right away, but that's mainly becoz i know this course gets filled up really really fast! Im going to be in school every alternating fridays and saturdays starting June 10 until August and my classses are from 9am till 4pm.. Im glad that my co-workers were flexible enough to switch some shifts around with me to keep me from work during these days.. I've been imagining myself lately being in school and it made me realize how much i miss going to school - being in a class, late night studying, books, libraries, etc.. Yeah, i guess you can say that i am looking forward to this! ^_^ :: Wednesday, May 25, 2005 :: good-bye nursing?
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quickie! we started off with a very sad morning.. we were already at the airport by 6:30am to say good bye to Lizelle (mon's sister) as she headed her way this time to LA.. although we know she's coming back and she hasnt been away that long yet, we miss her presence here in the house already.. *sigh* after that i headed back home to Aurora to run some errands for my sister Jenny.. i drove nearly 45 kms one way just to pick up my sister's pair of eye glasses, now how crazy is that?! (what a spoiled sister!) and then headed back home again to Woodbridge, and here i am... Im supposed to watch National Treasure with Mon but he's still not home so i might as well blog some more... i've been thinking lately (again) about leaving bedside nursing - and im thinking of maybe concentrating on becoming, say an Operating Room Nurse (thanx Lizelle for this great idea by the way!) actually just anything to take me away from the stress of the usual floor.. i do like where i am working now though, but that's only because no matter how crazy our floor can be i have great colleagues who help me keep my sanity! I've though about Labor and Delivery Nurse, but then being realistic i know that's the only field i can NEVER manage.. I'd rather see a dead or open body than seeing a baby coming out from a mommy's you know... i've seen a C-section delivery and i can manage that very well but not the natural-birthing process one.. maybe i should give up nursing all in all... hahaha! that was a joke.. ofcourse im not giving up nursing, that's my life ( and lotsa people would kill me if i did!) i just wanna be in a differnt setting for a change.. anyways that's all still up in the air, imma give myself some more time to think about it.. :: Monday, May 23, 2005 :: LoOong wEeKenD
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just chiLLin' well obviously it didnt take me that long to gain back my mood to blog coz here i am again! mon was just being too difficult yesterday, he just needed some extra lovin' so i had to cut off my time from blogging - hahaha! THE PROM: anyways, i had a blast during this weekend... actually, as long as im not at work i think i could call it a blast! nothing that exciting really happened - but i just had fun.. my sister Sheryll had her highschool prom last Friday.. and ofcourse, being the eldest and *ahem* reliable sister that i am, i wouldnt miss it for the world.. i was there to drive her to the mall to buy some last minute accessories for her dress, to the flower shop, and to the salon.. sadly, i didnt drive her to her prom but i watched her hopped in her bf's car with her friends to their prom..  * Sheryll and Don * as soon as they left for their prom, Jenny (my youngest sister) and i headed home to Woodbridge.. Jenny decided to stay with me over the weekend.. THE BARBECUE and PS2: over the weekend, we did nothing but pigged out on food.. Mon was asked to be a godfather to his friend's daughter last Saturday - and the baptismal reception was done at Imperial Buffet in Scarborough.. although I and Lizelle (mon's sister) were not very well familiar with the crowd at the reception, we didnt care, we ate as much as we could, *LOL!*.. and you'd think we've had enough - we then headed to the barbecue-after-party in Thornhill where we consumed more food!! *mhan!* we were definitely stuffed at the end of the day!! and ofcourse, we took some pictures at the barnecue..  * mon + lizeLLe *  * me + lizeLLe *  * mon + me * but i'd say that the most interesting thing that i've done or rather learn on that day was to play PS2 (thanx to Jenny's persistent) .. for the lack of a playmate, i was forced to play a game with her which was subsequently followed by more games.. ofcourse i had to let mon play with Jenny too, but that was only becoz i couldnt keep my eyes open anymore - i was just too exhausted to play anymore..   * mon and jenny at the PS2 * by Sunday morning, i was officially loving to play PS2 - not all games though, just Crash Bandicoot (yeah i know!) The mini-Despedida: we had a small dinner today for Lizelle (mon's sister) since she'll be leaving soon for LA - on Wednesday actually... we went to Scarborough Dragon Centre and bought some food - Chow Mein, Calamari, and shrimp fried rice..
it's not a good-bye-forever kinda thing... she'll be coming back here in Toronto, but we'll miss her for sure! (happy trip Lizelle!) and that's how my long weekend has been - it's all about the food! hahaha! tomorrow im heading out to the mall with Lizelle.. and along the way, i hope i get the chance to buy her a good-bye gift.. im thinking of buying her a stethoscope - which she can use if she decides to work as a nurse or as a physiotherapist (yeah, she has both degrees!) :: Sunday, May 22, 2005 :: last minute change
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bLoated.. i was supposed to blog about my weekend and how much fun i had.. but someone just ruined my mood for doing so.. so im just gonna wait till i get the mood and time to blog again! *darn it!* :: Monday, May 16, 2005 :: the downside of nursing
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day off.. lately, or rather since over the weekend, i've been thinking so much of how my job sucks big time.. my weekend was fine.. err.. no, i lied, it wasnt fine at all.. it went by prettty slow actually that i had to pray to God to end it a lot sooner! i was stuck at work over the weekend wiping asses, if not changing my patients' diapers or putting my patients on commodes and bringing them in and out of the washroom! unfortunately that's part of the job and God only knows how many million times i've done those things in 2 days!! the upsetting part that i noticed was that when a patient starts a day with all the washroom stuffs, everybody else seems to have the urge - making the whole day a big time sucker! *sigh* if i didnt have the heart, i dont think i could've survived, or neither did my patients.. i've seen other nurses tolerate leaving their patients in a "mess" - trust me! but let's not go there... but then though, i think i'd rather change diapers and do these craps just as long as my patients are stable... unstable patients call for a really really busy day - makes a day go by really fast! there was a patient in our ACU (Acute Coronary Unit) who was really unstable that they had to do an emergency pacemaker (a small chip inserted in your heart) insertion - mind you though, he was a toughy and a very combative patient.. they had to call security to hold him down and use 17mg of valium to knock him out!! hahaha! glad that wasnt my patient.. i think i'd rather stick with my wiping-assess.. at the end of the day, im just glad that these patients' relatives realize and notice the job-well-done we've done.. we were showered with lots of chocolates to snack with.. others even offered to buy us coffee.. + + + on a brigther side, mon and i are nearing our 3rd yr anniversary (2nd week of June) yikes! i mean, yehey!! ^_^ im getting excited actually becoz we're planning to go out of town, even for just 2 days.. we're thinking mostly of going to Wasaga Beach, it's an hour or less drive from Toronto.. i've been doing a lot of research about that place actually, and i cant stop myself.. im just really excited! At first i thought of going to Niagara Falls but we've been there before so to make things a little different we'll go to a beach.. *yipee!* i cant wait till next month - i think im a lot more excited about going to the beach than our 3rd yr anniversary! *LOL!* (i love you honey!) :: Wednesday, May 11, 2005 :: lazy 'oL me
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exhausted.. no, i havent forgotten to blog.. it's just that i've been busy these past few days, if not i've been simply lazy to blog about anything... uhmm, let's see, i was at work thursday and friday (i think, cant remember).. then i had a really huge argument with my dad on saturday.. then i celebrated mothers' day on sunday with my mom, sisters, cuzns, aunts and uncles.. and then i was back to work monday night till last night... and here i am again! wow, those days went by really fast huh... anyways, for the lack of anything to blog about i'll just post these pictures from our mothers' day celebration last sunday at Tom and Jerry's Restaurant.. [belated happy mothers' day by the way to all the mommies out there ^_^]  :: lunch time! ::  :: the far end of the table ::  .mom. .tita beth. . tita lita.  .giselle. .me.  :: we love the camera ::  :: the other end of the table ::  . giselle. .me. .jenny. sheryll. well, that's all for now folks! i'll visit blogs tomorrow... my bed is screaming for me! *Zzzz!* :: Wednesday, May 04, 2005 :: a few good things
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*grave yard shift* yesterday mon and i went out for dinner - had Japanese food.. and then we went to see this certain person for his papers - finally it's all completed! went grocery shopping for some food, rented some DVDs and had a cozy night...       * some sweet cravings *     * the DVDs *  * the good night kiss * now that im back working grave yard shift(s), im glad i had a good time yesterday.. :: Monday, May 02, 2005 :: the consuLtation
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content.. after all the contemplations or what not, i decided to go ahead with this whole endoscopy consultation today - i mean, what's there to lose? it is just a consultation, right? so the doctor saw me.. she went thru my medical history and concluded that i was generally healthy.. (good! just good i thought, crossing my fingers that the doctor would suggest to just forget about the procedure) BUT, since i probably had an adverse reaction to the clindamycin antibiotic that i had in late February and my Family Doctor somewhat insists according to my referral letter that i have this procedure done, the doctor said "let's go do it, to assure everybody that you're ok!" - great! wonderful! just wonderful!! you see, i had this whole concept in my mind that i am a nurse therefore i'll never go through these things and only my patients should go through these.. the concept was although i am a human being, i am different from the general population - that i can never be sick becoz i should know better about my own health.. i dont know how i ended up with those thoughts, but i've somewhat dwelled in that idea for a few years now.. when the doctor suggested to have a date booked for my upper endoscopy, i seriously thought that this is just a joke and i am only dreaming!! however, it's starting to sink in now - the thought that i am not invincible after all.. im not terrified about the procedure, atleast not yet.. and besides it'll only take 5-10 minutes to see my entire GI system and after that i am so done with it! anyways, my schedule is not until mid-August - plenty of time to pack my stuffs and run away, hahaha! + + + i woke up this morning and found out that i am a few thousand bucks richer!! i finally got my TAX refund - yeah babe!! and ofcourse, without wasting any seconds my bf and i headed out - had lunch at the Carribean and bought a new TV:   nothing fancy... it's only a 27" flat screen Toshiba for the room - something nice for *ahem* a hard working person like me *teehee!* :: Sunday, May 01, 2005 :: blah blahs
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exhausted! somebody get me a cup of coffee pls! im so exhausted i could fall asleep the minute i hit a bed, seriously! *Zzzz...* it's definitely not boring here at work - it has been pretty steady as a matter of fact and i've been on my feet pretty much the whole day but im just really really sleepy since i started my shift this morning! *sigh* good thing i have my day off tomorrow - tomorrow being the day however when i have my doctor's appointment for my possible OGD, some sort of scope to see whatever that clindamycin did to my esophagus months ago.. im hoping that since im very well ok now that i dont need to go through the whole scoping thing.. it's not a very invasive procedure, but, uhmm... i just dont like any types of procedures.. anyways, that is all for now.. i need to get back to work now.. |
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QUEENZ | 27 | Gemini | resides in Toronto | happily married to MON | a happy mom to LUKE MERVIN and LiANNA MEGAN | employed as an RN but presently on Maternity Leave | unpredictable | spontaneous | simple-living | hopeless-romantic | self-confessed martyr | crazy for sweet stuffs | loves trying different restos in town | amateur web-designer |
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