:: QueenZviLLe ::

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:: Monday, April 24, 2006 ::
randoms

_ i got a letter of acceptance today from Ryerson University for their 19-month accelerated nursing degree completion program! Well, it wasnt any of a surprise since i kinda had the feeling that i was gonna get in anyways... I already got accepted last year when i applied but i just decided to turn down the offer and maybe pursue it this year... So I'll be in school again every Saturdays for a period of 19-months starting September.. *oh shit!* it just dawned on me that me? in school? again?!! and for 19 months?! well, now... it's kinda exciting and at the same time scary.. scary that im gonna be stubborn again and be the great procrastinator that i am.. oh God, i just wish i'd be able to mentally commit myself to this....

_ im so exhausted.. 3 hours of sleep last night was not a very wise thing to do when i know that i have a 12 hour day shift the next day.. actually, watching a movie until 2am, instead of sleeping, was not a very wise thing to do... i was worst than a drunk person when i woke up this morning.. i cannot even remember how i got to work! i just remember that i started the truck this am, and before i knew it i was parked at the basement of the hospital! *LOL!* this is the 2nd time i've done this and i dont think i'll ever do it again! it was just 'unsafe practice'..

_ i had a patient today who was, apparently, a very well-known MD (but he's not well-known to me, infact, i never heard of him).. It was sad to see him now after living the life of an MD and having 2 sons who are also MDs.. He's confused, edematous and skin tears/breakdown all over, and with an amputated leg living in a Nursing Home.. He was admitted to us with a diagnosis of Failure to Cope.. Who would have thought huh?

_ mom is coming back from Manila tomorrow! im so excited! i actually missed her.. and to think i laughed at her when she cried when we said good-bye to her 2 weeks ago when she left for Manila.. 'mother-love' i guess... ^_^ someday, i know i'll understand...

_ im still debating whether to trade in my Ford Explorer for a more-modern Ford Explorer or a Nissan Altima... *tsk!* i love Ford Explorers but they're just too much on my pocket with the gas prices lately.. I like Nissan Altima just i just find it..... small? *sigh!* decisions, decisions.....

_ my birthday is coming up soon... *shux!* im turning 24!! am i?? still dont know what im going to do... i wanna go out of town for a change, and i know it'd be nice becoz it's summer by then...

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:: Thursday, April 20, 2006 ::
Blues Period

i guess its that moment every month, which i call the 'blues-period', which is starting to kick in... or is it just becoz i had a not so fun day? i dunno... maybe a combination of both...

sadly, it seems like my entries here in my blog lately have been mostly my endless rants about my life..

but whatever..

i miss my dad.. i wonder how he's doing.. it's been, what, a year now since we've been civilized with each other.. i guess mom's right - wounds take time to heal or to hasten it i should give him grandkids soon! uhmm, maybe i'll just wait for now till the wounds heal... i miss him though..

i had the most frustrating day today - I and Jenny used her new truck to drive all the way to downtown Toronto - luckily we got to our destination and was able to park in a decent street parking before it died on us!! what a mess! luckily, again, i was a CAA member and had emergency road side assistance.. but sadly they couldnt revive the truck and we had to tow it back to the dealer! *sh!t!* i wish we just used my truck... really, i so wish we did just use my truck! Honestly, im not that frustrated that her truck died - although i feel sorry.. I feel frustrated that we had to pay the tow truck $90!! what a waste! i could have used that money to fill up my tank and have lunch at some fancy restaurant! *ugh!* i hate wasting money... it breaks my heart....

*sigh*

on the brighter side... hmm, what is there on the brighter side?

oh, the weather! it's just beautiful! 20C today - gorgeous!
and even more brighter is the fact that Mon's Immigration Papers are almost done! I cant wait! We're planning on going for a vacation in Manila soon after it's all done!

*yey!*

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:: Monday, April 03, 2006 ::
grrr!

fcuk! (i seriosuly cannot keep count of how many times i've said that word today) im still struggling to study - and its not funny anymore - it's the night before my exams!

fcuk!

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:: Sunday, April 02, 2006 ::
here we go again!

here i go again trying all the many reasons not to study.. we're finally having our FINALS (which was postponed due to the strike) this coming Tuesday (april 4).. *damn* why did i even pray for them to strike - now here i am trying to study all over again... or atleast trying to get myself to..

i told myself im going to study tonight - and i slept the whole day just so i wont fall asleep early tonight and i even had a cup of coffee (from Timmy's ofcourse) after i had my 'wake-up' shower this evening.. BUT still of no use.. im already yawning!

i wish i can push it for tomorrow - but i have a part time tomorrow evening and im SO SURE im going to wake up late tomorrow no matter how early i set my alarm clock.. between sleeping and studying, my mind and body are more 'compatible' and inclined to sleeping (ofcourse!)

*sigh*

anyways... we went to see the new truck my mom bought today - Buick Rendezvous.. it's nice, but im not too crazy about it - maybe someday when i get to drive it.. I am, on the other hand, contemplating on trading my truck (Ford Explorer) to a.... hmm... i dont know yet - SUV (Honda or Ford Escape) or car (Nissan Altima).. i need to think about this for awhile.. i am still inlove with truck-like vehicle coz i just like to drive them - *goddamnit the gas prices!* if gas prices were 'reasonable' i'd still stick with trucks but because they're not im kinda torn between them - trucks / SUV or car..

ok.. enough of that for now..

'really need to hit some books!

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