:: QueenZviLLe ::

Im so exhausted... 2 more months seem to pass by soooo slow but in reality it's actually a short time.. I have so many things to do in so little time - mainly preparing my baby's stuffs - the room, and trying to come up with a name! *argh!* i feel tired just thinking about these. . .

(out of the blue)
yes, sometimes i do get that *kapow!* in the head - the realization of the truth is painful, which i've known long before but all is done... it's even scarier to look forward in the future but i dont.. i'd rather just live and deal with every single moment one day at a time..

it's getting harder to cope... day by day i feel myself getting heavier, my movements are becoming slower.. the things that i can normally do are quite limited now... Small little movements and actions can easily make me exhausted and drained.. All i wanna do is sleep, waking up is another thing - it's getting harder to wake up... My back is terrible, but I've had that for awhile anyways... My legs! OMG, my legs are always swollen no matter how long I elevate them these days - - - - and Im only 29 weeks!!! 11 more weeks seem like a very very long time!! I cant quite say that Im almost there coz time feels like dragging by... *sigh*

and the worst is my hormones!! NOBODY around seems to understand my emotional needs! *damn it!* arrgh! it's soooooo frustrating! ah! forget it, some people are just naturally cold!!

i need to let these all out - have to. . it's all part of pregnancy. . .

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on a happier note, I cant wait to see my little monski.. He cant stop kicking and moving! He wakes up mommy almost all the time in the morning! He's the only one that makes me very happy right now....