:: Sunday, December 30, 2007 ::
another baby???
current mood >>
I am still awake! my sleeping pattern is obviously crazy! I tried to sleep early in the hopes that I can get back to my normal sched but no luck - slept at 9pm and i was awake from midnight on - my body has gotten sooo used to my 2-4hrs of sleep becoz of Luke.. I cant seem to sleep any longer than that these days...
oh well, i guess that's ok since I can easily lose weight becoz of that.. but oh, except these days - its the holidays and im back to eating! *damn!* my one-meal-a-day is screwed! i just recently gained 5 lbs! *GrrRrr....R!* i must see to it that I stick to my diet after the new year celebration - I MUST!!! Come to think of it, I feel hungry a lot often these days... I think my body is starting to get used to the holiday food - I mean, i hope so.... or could I be pregnant again?! hahaha! Mon was speechless when I made that joke this evening... but could I? its not impossible. . . . hahaha! but i hope not... *cross-fingers* :: Wednesday, December 19, 2007 :: random
Ok, enough of the emo stuffs... i think im a little bit better now, although i still get emotional every now and then - but not as bad i guess, or atleast not yet again..
Im not being emo again, but i just wanna say Im not feeling the xmas spirits yet and its just a week away.. I dont have anything to be excited about, maybe becoz I already got Luke and that's all that makes me happy these days - nothing can exceed that.. Oh well... + + + Im tying to "normalize" my sleeping schedule again.. I've been awake during the night and asleep during the day these past few days and I dont actually like it since I cant get anything done around the house or anything in general.. I havent even started xmas shopping since i dont wake up until the early evenings - shux! I need to do something about this... + + + The weather forecast predicts it's going to snow today - i hope it doesnt snow as bad as the weekend (where we had 25+ cm of snow!) coz Im planning to start my xmas shopping today.. I hate driving in the snow even if Im driving my truck.. + + + My throat is itchy.. I hope I dont catch any cough or cold this season, it'd be tough to take care of Luke.. Mon has caught a slight cold already.. *tsk!* + + + I weighed myself yesterday and I was surprised to find out that I've lost 10lbs within a week! At my OB's last week, I weighed 146 lbs and yesterday I was 135 lbs! My diet regimen is working!! There could be a slight error since im comparing weights which were both taken from different scales but still, Im sure I lost 10lbs more or less! I just need to lose 10lbs more and I should be back to my pre-pregnancy weight.. I need to find out a hip-size-reduction exercise.. i know big hips are in the genes, but I gotta be positive that there must be some ways to prevent it from getting bigger each time I get pregnant! + + + I've somewhat made up my mind that Im going to start doing some under-the-table nursing jobs in January, just for extra cash.. I know a friend/co-worker of mine who has already started doing this.. The pay is actually not bad, if not, very good.. With my Maternity Pay, EI and then this supposedly-under-the-table-job, that should be enough to pay off all my loans and have some savings for a house next year.. I wish it was all that easy - hehehe! The toughest part I think will be trying to find a baby-sitter for Luke while Im at work... Oh well, Im sure I'd be able to come up with something.. Mon, my sisters, my mom and I should try to co-ordinate our work/school schedule.. + + + baby Luke is awake! i guess that's it for my blogging for now.. :: Thursday, December 13, 2007 :: emo mode
I cant sleep.... too much adrenaine I guess...
I've been wanting to type down everything in my mind, but I just dont know where to start... Maybe I should with the things I learn again and again: Life is really tough and you gotta to be tough in order to survive.. But you dont have to go through it alone.. There are things in life that you just simply cannot change but you just have to learn to live with it and accept it.. It may not make everybody happy but it's just the way it's supposed to be.. The key to life is not forgetting that you're only human.. Nobody is greater than the other since we were all created alike.. Whatever you may have or get, whatever you may achieve or lose in life will never define who you are - it's always what's within you that will prevail.. I dont think I have to give an example for this, the statemet itself is very clear.. Be human just like all the others.. Remember as they always say in the golden rule: Do not do unto others what you do not want others to do unto you - it applies ALL the time in our lives! *sigh* Such a tragic thing that Im going through but Im glad that Im finally starting to see some light just by starting to forgive and forget and letting the anger subside.. and it's starting to feel great.. It doesnt matter anymore if it's being reciprocated - the important thing is Im not letting such anger to eat me up becoz that's just wrong and I dont know how some people can actually live with it.. I just cant.. *sigh* too much drama huh... on a brighter note: I love Luke so much and Im finally beginning to know what it feels like to be a mom... He makes me so happy.. I cant go on a day without him.. |
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QUEENZ | 27 | Gemini | resides in Toronto | happily married to MON | a happy mom to LUKE MERVIN and LiANNA MEGAN | employed as an RN but presently on Maternity Leave | unpredictable | spontaneous | simple-living | hopeless-romantic | self-confessed martyr | crazy for sweet stuffs | loves trying different restos in town | amateur web-designer |
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