:: Saturday, March 29, 2008 ::
a revolutionary period
current mood >>
as we grow, i think all of us would come to a certain point in our lives when we would realize that we dont/cant do the things that we can or simply used to love doing before.. i believe 'outgrow' is the word to properly term it.. say for example, playing playstation or video games - alot of the guys i know dont outgrow playing with playstation until their late 20s or so.. another example is women painting their faces with tons of make-up.. and i notice it changing as they start having children - some of them drastically change from heavy gothic like make up to just a simple lip gloss!
i think along with outgrowing certain things that we used to do when we were young comes maturity, not just physically but more so mentally, spiritually and emotionally. I guess its not wrong to say that our outlook in life also changes with it, which is good right? The girls and I went out clubbing last night to celebrate my cousin's 20th birthday.. the celebration was planned a few weeks ahead, Mon and I were ok about it at that time. Yesterday, however, as we were getting dressed, we both learned that we didnt feel like going out clubbing anymore.. it was ridiculously funny how low-spirited we both looked and felt! we just wanted to stay at home, relax and spend time with our baby.. But we still ended up going becoz we had already promised my cousin that we would go, and we had also promised my mom that she would have baby Luke last night to take care of.. Mind you, it was our 2nd time going out clubbing since i gave birth and from the looks of it it's going to be the last time - unless ofcourse the next occassion really NEEDs us to go clubbing.. so as we were in the club, i personally felt 'inappropriate' to be there.. Although most girls my age are usually just beginning or in the midst of enjoying the act of going out clubbing, bar hopping and whatever else that comes with it, im only 25yrs old but i felt too old and too wrong for these things already!!.. and i can only think of 2 reasons for it - either im too weird or i've actually outgrown these.. Looking back, I dont think I have actually outgrown a lot of things until I became a mom.. I still drink but not as much as I used to... I was a shopaholic, but, oh boy! Im a much improved person, thanks to baby Luke! - I dont go to the mall almost everyday anymore, just 2-4 times a month now! Infact I've never stayed so looong at home! and I dont shop a lot for myself anymore - i shop more for my baby... and i think i can go on and on about these! the changes are amazing and i feel like a new 'me'... i sure feel good! i just hope that i never outgrow blogging.. ^_^ :: Friday, March 28, 2008 :: the many faces of Luke
I obviously have nothing better to do at this time of the night... Or rather, no interest in doing anything else but play around with some pictures of my baby.. Im not really very good using graphic softwares (amateur somewhat) and I usually just get lucky when I produce something like this, LOL! Hence:
 I think he's changed a lot.. but still looks a lot like his dad! *damn it!* i want him to look like me, LOL! my grandma tells me that a baby's/child's facial appearance, as time goes by and as he/she grows, changes and tends to look more like the person who is taking care of him/her almost all the time or whoever is with him/her more often... i somewhat believe it becoz I have an adopted brother who looks like my grandma now and she was the one who took care of him since we got him - and he's now 19 yrs old.. so, i think i have a big chance! baby Luke will eventually look a lot like mommy! LOL! :: Thursday, March 27, 2008 :: is it a baby boy or girl??
i was reading some posts on Pinoyexchange and then i found the link to this Chinese Calendar .. It's kinda interesting becoz it tries to predict the gender of the unborn baby... it just asks for your age at the time of concepcion and the month of concepcion and then it can already predict the gender.. i tried doing it and it was right for my baby Luke.
try it and let me know if it predicts yours correctly as well.. Interesting enough, that if the calendar is almost always right i think i can definitely make use of it in the future.. if we do it at my right age and right time we can have a baby girL next time! a baby LUCY that might look like this:  but ofcourse that's my baby Luke, hahaha!! we wanted to see what he's going to look like if he was a girl so we put a wig on him... hahaha! it's actually not bad, he looks pretty cute for a girl, hahaha! oh well... speaking of him by the way, he just turned 5 months old last Tuesday! there he is now with his daddy..  :: Monday, March 24, 2008 :: cheers!  It's been a roller coaster ride for sure!.. it's been both easy and tough.. we've both laughed and cried.. but we went through it all together as one and managed... and that has all been becoz of love.. Happy 1st year Anniversary Hon! *cheers!* i love you. :: Saturday, March 22, 2008 :: FEATURED FRIENDS
Yey! Our blog was featured as one of the top 5 picks of the week by Borski and Nai and we will do the same for 5 other friends.When you feature your friends’ blogs, you will help increase (hopefully) their page rank and yours. You can read more on this here and here. So keep the ball rolling, make your own 5 featured friends. To return the favor, make sure you include the name of the person who recommended you. Example:
1. GiseLLe is one of my featured friends. 2. So when GiseLLe will make her featured friends for the week, she has to include my name and she will pick 4 or 5 more from her own list of friends. 3. She will inform ALL her featured friends to keep the ball rolling. If you use Blogger, you can add your featured friends using the new page element ‘Link List’. My Featured Friends Blogs are: GiseLLe , Grace , Pinaywife, WiLLa , and of course Borski and Nai . Keep it going! :: Thursday, March 20, 2008 :: the house wife
i have so many things to do yet im soo lazy! *damn!*
i and baby Luke stayed over at my mom's house for a few days and just came back here in Toronto yesterday.. all the things that i need to do here in the house, as a result, have piled up... i have to clean the house, do the laundry, cook dinner tonight for the boys... and ofcourse, when you leave the house even for a few days with the boys incharged - you already know what that means.... MESS! just thinking about the things i have to do exhausts me already! sometimes i wish that it was the other way around you know - Mon would do the cleaning, laundry and cooking, plus take care of baby Luke at the same time... hmm.... but that wouldnt be right, LOL! Im just glad that Mon has his holidays from today until Monday.. He can help by looking after baby Luke while i do the house chores.. i think he'd rather have that set up anyways... so let's see the list of things that i need to do today: 1. clean the kitchen 2. have to re-arrange the dinning area to make way for the chest freezer and hutch/buffet table that we recently bought. 3. clean the living area 4. clean our bed room / washroom 5. do the laundry 6. cook dinner for the boys 7. and wash baby Luke's bottles... soO many things to do mhan! i better get started.. i have to pick up Jenny from Downsview station later after these chores.. Im just glad that i dont have to drive all the way to Hamilton tomorrow to pick her up.. I can sleep in for a little bit tomorrow.. the girls and i are having a late dinner later.. i have no idea where we're eating.. Giselle has planned the whole thing.. i hope its a good one coz after all the house chores that im going to do, i think i deserve a nice meal tonight! :: Sunday, March 16, 2008 :: its simple
all i wanted was to get some sleep... its that simple..
anybody who works night shifts knows exactly how hard it is to work at night with no sleep during the day.. :: Friday, March 14, 2008 ::  :: little Luke's portrait picture [4 months] ::* * * * * * Havent had the chance lately to blog... I started working and its so exhausting trying to juggle everything... the fact that im only working a few days a week these days makes me wonder how hard is it going to be when i start working full time?! Although I dont really find this nursing agency's job that hard - infact, its 100times better than working in the hospital, I still get easily exhausted becoz Im a full time mommy and a full time wife and i dont get much rest at home... At times like this, I cant help but remember how I would usually sleep and rest when I was still pregnant - anytime for as long as I want! *gosh* those were the days huh... Oh well....! Im working again tonight so I better TRY to get some rest/sleep.. :: Thursday, March 13, 2008 :: Bb. Pilipinas World 2008
I was reading Ate Grace's blog and happened to watch this youtube video of the new Bb. Pilipinas World 2008 winner.. LOL! I dont even know where and how to begin!
watch it for yourself.... Janina San Miguel :: Tuesday, March 11, 2008 :: Usog
"Usog" is a Filipino superstition where an affliction or psychological disorder is attributed to an evil eye hex. It usually affects an unsuspecting child, usually an infant or toddler, who has been greeted by a stranger.
Once affected, the child begins to develop fever, and sometimes convulsions. Supposedly, the child can be cured by placing its clothing in hot water and boiling it. It is said that the condition is caused by the stranger having an evil eye or masamang mata in Tagalog, lurking around. Superstitious folks have supposedly observed this phenomenon and regularly suggest this to the Psychiatric Disorders Handbook DSM-IV which, of course, is not accepted. Usog can also affect adults, although it induces vomiting rather than fever. Supposedly, it can be prevented by stopping a stranger or visitor from greeting the child. Unlike "lihi", however, usog is not medically accepted. source: wikipedia.org :: Sunday, March 09, 2008 :: marriage myths
myth: Loneliness.marriage will end loneliness.
reality:many married people are still very lonely. myth: Fulfilment. Fallacy which makes us believe that being married makes us complete human beings. reality: A couple complements one another, not completes one another. myth: Marriage is for everyone. reality: There are a lot of unmarried people who are extremely happy. myth: Monogamy. Myth makes a couple believe that they are the only ones who are dealing with infidelity or that it only happens to bad or weak people. reality: it is a societal issue that needs to be openly addressed so that monogamy becomes more attainable for more people. myth: romance will always be alive in a good marriage. reality: nearly all relationships experience peaks and valleys. the everyday problems and challenges of married life can often cloud-over romantic feelings. this is when making the decision to love is important. myth: marriage is our source of happiness. reality: we cant expect our spouse to be our one source of happiness. our personal happiness must come from within ourselves. marriage can compliment our own individual happiness but it cant be the primary source. myth: we wont have major problems if we truly love one another. reality: a good marriage doesnt just happen. it takes nurturing and work. myth: my spouse should know my needs without me saying anything. reality: just because we're married doesnt mean we can read minds. we have to communicate our needs. myth: conflict means lack of love. reality: conflict happens in every marriage. fighting fair and for the relationship, and not just to win is healthy in a marriage. source: Toronto 24hrs wishing upon a star!
i should not be thrilled about going back to work.. i know i am not but i just dont feel it quite yet... i dont think the "feeling" has sunk in just yet.. i honestly dont want to go back to work or do any work for that matter.. but the idea of "extra" cash is just so tempting... a couple of my friends on Mat Leave are already doing it and they are obviously enjoying it...
the same nursing agency that my friends are working with has already hired me since last week of February but I decided not to pick up any shifts until this coming Tuesday.. and for that reason, I wish Tuesday would never come, LOL! ugh! i dont wanna work but i know i need to... the Maternity Leave Benefits are great but I find that I dont get as much cash as I used to when I was still working.. the combined EI and Mat Pay that Im getting is almost just 3/4 of what i used to earn... and that sucks! but no, it shouldnt suck coz atleast im not working right? LOL! but whatever, it still sucks! i need my money so baby Luke and I can spend more time at the mall, hahaha! the "extra" cash is really very tempting so Im going ahead with this casual nursing job... it shouldnt be that hard coz Im not picking up a lot of shifts and I intend to work night shifts as much as possible... I find that its easier to work on nights becoz almost 100% of the time the patients are already sleeping and I just have to stand by for emergencies. so that should be ok... and besides that, as far as I kow, Im going to continue to get my EI pay until the end of my Mat Leave.. however, the Maternity Pay is going to end on my 6th month... having said that, that will suck even more! so i should really start doing some work and get used to it... *sigh* i wish i'd win the lottery so i wouldnt go back to work... :: Saturday, March 08, 2008 :: all about baby Luke
i took this The Know-Your-Baby quiz at ivillage.com and this is the result that i got:
so just who is baby Luke? The Textbook Baby! Your baby is predictable and thus fairly easy to handle. He does everything on cue, so there are few surprises with him. He reaches all the milestones right on schedule -- sleeps through the night by three months, rolls over by five and sits up by six. He'll have growth spurts like clockwork -- periods during which his appetite will suddenly increase because he's putting on extra body weight or making a developmental leap. Even as young as a week, he can play on his own for short periods -- 15 minutes or so -- and he'll coo a lot and look around. He smiles when someone smiles at him. Though your baby has normal cranky periods, just as the books describe, he is easy to calm. It's not hard to get him to sleep, either. i think that defines baby Luke quite well.. and then i also got this info from ivillage.com out of my curiosity. . . May sleep about six hours at night before waking (total sleep typically 14 to 17 hours) almost but not quite there yet.. he does every now and then.. ofcourse he can! Lifts head up 90 degrees he can! Can follow a moving object for a 180-degree arc definitely! Babbles and amuses self with new noises oh, he does this all the time! Responds to all colors and shades i think so.. Explores objects with his mouth always! Recognizes a bottle or breast uhmm... i think he does! Communicates pain, fear, loneliness and discomfort through crying i think so.. Responds to a rattle or bell wow... my baby is reall y growing up so fast... :: Thursday, March 06, 2008 :: quickie
i plan on sleeping early tonight coz im really exhausted.... nothing much has happened but i feel like these past few days have been hectic.. i dont even remember anything that happened, LOL! i think im slowly but surely becoming retarded by being just a stay-home-mom.. i think i really need to get back to work soon to save my rusting brain!
speaking of work. . . . . . I was shocked to learn that one of my co-workers is leaving our unit again! why is everybody leaving? [... like as if i have no plans myself! LOL! ] *sigh* the last time i spoke with her - which was like when i was still 4 months pregnant, she told me she was going to try to do the NCLEX and maybe try working in the states.. i think she's actually going to do it that's why she's leaving... and then also there's Roger who just left recently as well and now working in ICU at Humber.. Danielle and Grace had left a couple of months back and are now working at TGH... oh well, good luck to you guys! its my turn next! LOL! i think i really need to move on myself.. i need to do something different with my nursing career... so much to think about... but just thinking about it all is exhausting so i better hit the bed for now and maybe tomorrow i can start fresh.... maybe! i'll blog hop tomorrow... gud nyt! :: Wednesday, March 05, 2008 :: NO to Snow  and the snow just keeps on coming... *sigh* look at my poor baby, tsk!i used to like snow when we were just new here in canada.. but it didnt really take that long for me to hate it... i dont like walking on snow-covered grounds, much more when the snow or water has turned into ice.. i cant count how many times i nearly slipped.. i hate shovelling snow in the driveway.. however, i find that driving in the snow is the worst part! it's crazy the number of winter storms that Toronto has been getting for this year alone.. and boy, am i seriously glad that I am on Maternity Leave during this time.. I dont have to drive to work in this mad weather! I can just stay safe, cozy and relaxed at home with my baby Luke.. [yess... that's life!] I can just imagine how the traffic is going to be like tomorrow morning... crazy! *tsk!* but ofcourse that's not for me to worry about coz me and baby Luke will be sleeping in tomorrow, LOL! :: Tuesday, March 04, 2008 :: mommy's day off    anyways, it was one of my brother-in-law's last weekend here in Toronto and he wanted us to take him clubbing so we did.. we took him to the Guvernment.. I've never been here coz i find it quite remote from the club district of Toronto. And besides that, I dont really like paying for the entrance fee, LOL! I still prefer to go to my usual club house - Crock Rock where I can get in for free with a guest during 911 nights.. Sadly though, 911 nights are only during Wednesdays.. yes, i go clubbing on wednesdays and not on saturdays, LOL! but hey, you'd be surprised to find out how many people go out clubbing on wednesdays, especially at Crock Rock.. The club is usually jam-packed with nurses, doctors, policemen, firemen, and whatever else that go along with 911.. I mean, who wouldnt?? the entrance is free for those involved with 911! and for a single gal, wouldnt you want to see a lot of these hot firemen, doctors, and policemen shaking their booties on the dance floor??? LOL! and ofcoure that wouldnt be me... the last time i checked Im already married, LOL! oh well, those were the days... |
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QUEENZ | 27 | Gemini | resides in Toronto | happily married to MON | a happy mom to LUKE MERVIN and LiANNA MEGAN | employed as an RN but presently on Maternity Leave | unpredictable | spontaneous | simple-living | hopeless-romantic | self-confessed martyr | crazy for sweet stuffs | loves trying different restos in town | amateur web-designer |
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