i helped my sister Jenny moved her stuffs from her residence today... the moving part was not that bad... but it was the driving that drained me completely... i probably drove more than 250kms today alone.. In the morning, around 9am, I drove Luke to my mom's place in Newmarket for baby-sitting, about half an hour drive from Toronto.. And then I headed to Hamilton, about an hour drive from Newmarket... and those driving were all without any traffic... We didnt get to finish loading my sister's stuffs in the van until 5pm or so... and then on my way home, I had to obviously go back to Newmarket first to get Luke, and then drove all the way back to Toronto... we finally got home here in Toronto by 10pm...

exhaustion is probably an understatement of what I feel right now... *yawns*

I've been wanting to blog for the longest time but I just couldnt seem to get the time to.. I've just been very busy with so many things...

Luke is MUCH better - HUGE improvements since I started using the Nebulizer on him.. He still coughs every now and then, but it's much much better.. His lungs sound clear now.. *thank God!* We have a Doc appointment on Monday which we had scheduled 2 months ago, long before Luke got sick, for his 3rd set of immunizations.. Im still having second thoughts whether to cancel it or not.. I found a couple of new pediatricians but I dont have the time yet to check them out completely.. so, we'll see..

The weather has just been so fabulous! I've bee walking and taking Luke out a lot to get some sunshine and fresh air - I think that has done him some good as well.. And since the weather is MUCH better - everyone in the house has been very busy since last weekend doing some Spring Cleaning.. And what perfect timing for us to do it - my in-laws will be visiting Toronto again and they will be here by this coming weekend.. They will be staying in Woodbridge but we better make sure our house is clean as well..

Luke's Baptism - Im quite busy trying to organize it as well... Im taking it one step at a time since the planned event wont be until June 21st.. But i gotta make sure everything is done a month before..

My part time job - I've bee doing some shifts here and there.. I just did one last night at Sherwood Court - not really my fave place to work since I happen to be dealing with a lot of emergencies in that place but it was the only shift available so far so I took it... I'll be working on Monday night again...

So yeah... I've just been busy trying to juggle things... but Im still alive.

I've had this feeling that becoz Luke is not febrile and that he really is not in respiratory distress medically speaking, his doctor would just take things lightly and send us home without any prescriptions.. But becoz it was just my gut feeling and the fact that i've started hearing some crackles and expiratory wheezes whenever i auscultate his lungs, I thought I should really have him checked..

So I did take him to his pediatrician yesterday.. We waited for about an hour before we were seen.. The doc auscultated Luke's lungs and confirmed that I was right with what I've been hearing.. But, again, becoz Luke has no fever, she diagnosed it as a Viral Bronchiolitis and sent us home without any prescriptions. She advised me to continue what i was doing before - the chest physio, vicks, vaporizer and stuff and asked me to come back when Luke starts to develop fever and when he's struggling to breath... HELLO??! i stood there in dismay, utterly shocked and my jaw probably dropped wide open after hearing that.. I thought to myself - WTF?! do i wanna wait till that happens - Luke STRUGGLING to breath?? seriously now, are u f*cking nuts?? Because she walked out of the room a lot faster than before I could say something, I was not able to say anything and left the clinic really angry...

I cant tolerate anymore watching my son cry everytime I wipe his nose after he sneezes, or see him vomit everytime he struggles to cough the phlegm out.. My very cheerful and very active baby is not anymore - and that saddens me a lot - any mom would!

So I decided to take matters into my own hands... I started using the Nebulizer on him with an infant dose of ventolin (thank God my aunt has some in stock!) plus the vaporizer, vicks and so much TLC... He slept very easily tonight - and still sleeping soundly, just the way I want it... Im hoping and praying that this is the beginning of his quick recovery..

and as for Dr. Kupfert - im not having any second thoughts of replacing you with a BETTER pediatrician!!

2 days ago Luke has started sneezing a lot more often than usual... and I was beginning to suspect that something was coming down again.. and yep! he's got colds again.. and this time, he's also got a dry cough... i dont think he got it from anyone since nobody at home is sick at the moment - atleast not that Im aware of.. and i cant think of any other reasons for it other than the ever changing weather!

*sigh*

it's probably viral.. im beginning to have some sore throat myself, and Im probaby getting what he's got again! the last time he was sick, i got sick too... but i'd rather be sick than him - i can even be twice as sick to spare my baby from any illness - im sure all mothers have always wished that..

the humidifier in our room is already working at its max.... i started using the vaporizer again.. i've started rubbing baby vicks vapo-rub on his chest, back and soles of his feet.. i've also started instilling saline drops in his nose so i can better suction his nose.. im gonna start chest physio when he wakes up later.. all my nursing interventions are in effect! *damn!* im just glad that his appetite hasnt changed - that's the last thing that i need right now! he needs to be well hydrated.. *sigh* it's so hard being a mom huh... God, how i wish i have everything that he has right now instead of him! Or maybe my husband can have everything instead to spare me and Luke, Im sure he wont mind! LOL!

1. When I make a fist I always put my thumb in beween my middle finger and my
pointy finger.
2. One windy day (2 yrs ago i think), as i was opening my car i lost control of the door and it flew wide open and hit the door of a brand new Infiniti FX SUV which was parked beside me.. a scratch was formed as a result, and i think a little dent as well.. no one saw it so i, who was scared and nervous as hell, hurriedly got into my car and drove away as soon as i can. (i hope none of u owns that infiniti, LOL!)
3. When I was very young, I had set my mind that whoever would give me 5 white roses would be the "right" one for me (yeah, i know, corny but hey i was very young then) - i honestly never told this to anyone.. and then when i was in college (around 2001ish) - a guy who really liked me gave me 5 white roses on valentine's day! I obviously couldnt believe it! I never really liked him though so we never dated.. and 6 yrs later i married my husband, but he still hasnt given me 5 white roses! could he be? LOL!
4. I never knew how to talk in Arabic even if we lived in Dubai for 9 years, but I can still read and write words in Arabic.
5. It was my birthday when i wrote my Nursing Board Exams - i didnt study for it becoz I was very lazy but I just honestly prayed really hard to God and asked him to help me pass it anyways as a birthday gift.. and what a wonderful gift it was!
6. When i was working as a closing Manager at Harvey's and Swiss Chalet (back when I was still a nursing student) I used to give away free food!
7. I love having a shower before bed time - call it OCD if u will, but i dont like going to bed dirty.
8. When my friends/sisters or husband need to skip their school/work I write and sign them doctors' notes.. and it always works! (im not only a nurse, i can be a doctor too! LOL!)

i woke up kinda early today and decided not to go back in bed.. Baby Luke is watching his fave cartoons again - Happy Feet.. it has become his daily routine to watch it as soon as he wakes up, and we have obviously watched this for a hundred times now.. but ofcourse, to him, its probably just watching a new movie over and over again! LOL! so anyways, i decided ill surf the net while he watches... i've finished blog hopping for now and thought of reading my old entries and came upon this:

:: Tuesday, June 29, 2004 :: down the memory lane
h0me ..remiscent mode..

I was browsing thru friendster and i landed on some of my friends that I got
to know thru Glee Club (UST-Science).. Somehow, they've always reminded me of
one of my greatest frustrations in life - to sing.

I've always loved to sing.
When I was 3-4 yrs old, I used to live with my uncle who was (and still is) a
priest.. Every evening masses, I would sneak out of the house in my undies and
join the church choir.. For all I know, the group loved me. They always welcomed
me and had always let me sing with them, and sometimes letting me sing on top of
my lungs, loud enough to call attention to people attending the mass.. and then
my lola would come and grab me by the ear and bring me back to the house. *LOL* And that went on until I was 9-10 yrs old, when it was time for me to leave
Manila for Dubai.

I went back to Manila for College. I met Angel, a good friend
of mine. She asked me to audition with her in this so called "Glee Club" just
for fun. We were not serious about it at all. We passed the audition, we got in,
and we started singing with the Gleepols. Little did we know that we'd be more
than crazy about this group than our interest with our studies!! We loved every
minute we spent rehearsing and performing whenever there were College Programs or masses for our College. We loved the new friends we made, we loved the attention people gave us, but above all, we loved singing! Soon after, sometimes i'd sing solo too which made me feel i was on top of the world!

2 yrs after, i had to leave for Toronto.. I was very upset.. it might sound silly but GleeClub was one of the biggest reasons why I didnt wanna leave.. But here I am now.. Looking back, I kept asking myself why did I even have to know about and love Glee Club and eventually leave everything behind.. and i finally know the
answer.. I think God wanted me to know that He made my dreams come true somehow, even for just a short time.. and I'll always be thankful for it. ^_^ every now and then, I still sing - in the bathroom, or during karaoke parties, or whenever my bf and I are hum'n some songs.. and im more than happy and satisfied.

i still miss them... i miss singing... but im happy where i am now ^_^ and besides that, its not that i cant sing anymore right? God is trully amazing! Even if i dont sing anymore with the Gleepols, he still surrounded me with people who love to sing - my husband, our friends... and during special occassions, our friends who love to play guitars and drums would let me sing and jam with them... so it's all good... all good!