:: QueenZviLLe ::

So my Maternity Leave ends on Oct.12 and I am returning to work.. Our unit manager wants me to take some of my vacation hours prior so I wont be returning until Nov.17.. I cant believe it! It's really official that I am returning to the real world of nursing! At times, I feel excited to return when I think about the adrenaline rush and code blues on our floor.. But more often, I dont really feel like returning to work, mainly becoz I just wanna stay at home and play with Luke. But life has to go on I guess and I should just be thankful that I still have a full time job to return to.

i never realized how much free time i used to have until I had Luke... i can still remember how i used to spend my days off from work just sleeping and slacking off and how i used to procrastinate.. But now, I cant even procrastinate becoz things will never be actually get done if I do, or they will be done but after awhile.

there's the shopping and going to the mall - I seem to have the time but not as plenty as I used to since I have to work my schedule around Luke.. I wanna make sure that it doesnt interfere with his feeding schedule as much as possible. no more late night parties every weekend becoz I wanna make sure that Luke is in bed by 10pm atleast or else he gets cranky. and besides, having to start a day with him by 7-8am and spending a full day with him are more than enough reasons to put him to bed by 9-10pm. it has become a routine for me to do my house chores during his nap times becoz Luke requires my full attention when he's awake - he crawls everywhere, likes to touch everything, climbs up and down the bed and chair, opens the cabinets..... he's such a super duper active baby and i cant complain about that ^___^ and im sure there's more things to look our for once he starts to walk and that doesnt seem for long. we've seen him take a few amazing unsupervised steps around our room - from our bed to our TV.. and he just loves doing it! ^__^

so now my Maternity Leave is coming to an end and I really cannot imagine how Im going to be able to manage and balance my time with him and work, plus the house chores.. I know I can, it's just going to be hard in the beginning for sure, but I know eventually i will be able to.. but i just cant imagine it yet... would've been nice if i didnt have to do 12 hour-shifts at the hospital, and Mon has actually insisted that I find another job that allows me to work 8-hour shifts during weekdays only but I dont really wanna do it just yet for employment-history and buying-a-house reasons...

*sigh* 24 hours a day is not enough!